A Silent Soul.....

हूँ मैं शांत मगर,,
इसका ये मतलब नहीं की मेरे पास शब्द नहीं,,

समंदर भी है बड़ा शांत कहीं,,,
मगर इसका ये मतलब नहीं कि उसको तुझे डुबाने का हौसला नहीं,,

हूँ मैं तनहा मगर,,
इसका ये मतलब नहीं कि मैं कोई कमजोर सही,,

नदियाँ भी है तनहा,,
मगर ये याद रख उनके बिना तेरा जीवन का कोई मोल नहीं समाया,,

हूँ मैं अभी फ़सां अपने भ्रव्यजाल में,,
मगर इसका ये अम्त्लब नहीं की मेरा कोई लक्ष्य नहीं,,

हवाएं भी बहकती है बहुत,,
मगर याद रख,,उनके बिना इस धरती का भी जीवन व्यर्थ समाया।।।।

India as WOMENICIDE....

I don't want to say anything about the Rape case that was being held two day earlier on 16th December, 2012. I don't want to sat anything about the present generation of our India, and i also don't want to say anything about the administration which was running the whole corrupt society in a best corrupt manner.
                              I simply want to ask one thing that Does anyone has a respect for the mother nation or not?? Does anyone has a respect for the females who taught the highest truths and received the same veneration as men, in Vedas and Upanishads.
                                     India ranks 115 in the Human Development Index of 2001 (UNDP, 2001).The country has made considerable progress since independence; economic reform and liberalization measures over the 1990s have led to strong economic growth, increased exports and reduced inflation. Overall life expectancy is 62.9 years, and projections for 2000-2005 suggest that life expectancy of males and females will be 63.6 years and 64.9 years respectively (United Nations Population Division, 2000). According to the 2001 Census, overall literacy has increased to 65.38
percent (Census of India, 2001).
 But what this mean to the society of women in India ? 
This is a big question on the growth of a country who has expected the second super power around 2030. A report commissioned by the United Nations Resident Co-ordinator in India (Menon-Sen and Shivakumar, 2001) titled ‘Women in India: How Free? How Equal?’ raises several disturbing issues concerning the current status of women in India. It Includes :

• Although the absolute number of females has grown 21.79 percent in the last decade, the malefemale ratio is still lower than it was 100 years ago. In societies where men and women are treated equally, women tend to outlive and outnumber men. Typically, one would expect to find 103-105 women for every 100 men. The 2001 Census reveals an adverse ratio of 93 women for every 100 men. With the exception of Kerala, every state has fewer women than men. India, in the words of Amartya Sen, has to account for some 25 million ‘missing women’.
• The Indian girl child is disadvantaged right from birth. The sex ratio for girl children between the age of 0 and 6 years is 927, strengthening the fear that some girl children are never born or have no opportunity to survive.
• Only 54 percent of women are literate as compared to 76 percent of men.
• More than 36 percent of the population lives below the poverty line. Many of them are women.
• There are far fewer women in the paid workforce than there are men.
• In some states such as West Bengal, Orissa, Bihar, Assam and Arunachal Pradesh, between 63 and 85 percent of married women suffer from anaemia (IIPS, 2000 and ORC Macro 2000).
• The average Indian woman bears her first child before she is 22 years and has little control over her own fertility and reproductive health.
• In 1998 – 1999, only 48 percent of married women in the reproductive age group use contraception (World P o p u l a t i o n Monitoring, 2000). This figure is much lower (30%) in poorer states like Uttar Pradesh and Bihar.
• For many women, abortion is the only method of contraception available.
• More than 570 women die per 100,000 births (World Population Monitoring, 2000), 70 percent due to totally avoidable reasons.
• Women are under-represented in governance and decision-making positions.
• Most women do not have any autonomy in decision making in their personal lives.
• In Madhya Pradesh and Rajasthan, less than 50 percent of women have access to
• money in the household (IIPS and ORC Macro, 2000).
• Women face violence inside and outside their family, as well as at the workplace.

This is the condition of our India, a becoming Super Power of the World where the famoue tag line is famous all over the World that " Ahimsa Parmo Dharma ", But does this Ahmisa ( Non-Violence) is only for Men and or for other countries regarding peace or something else, does it not for the own women who are living in our homes and give us a full dedicated sacrifice without asking any thing with respect to their sacrifice. 

                                    There are many examples to prove that there is also a respect about the India women starting from the Savitrabai Phule to the Pratibha Patil and many more, but by counting some names, does we show the true respect for the Women? 

The answer is simply NO as Police records for the country as a whole show that a woman is molested every 26 minutes. A rape occurs every 34 minutes. Every 42 minutes, an incident of sexual harassment takes place. A woman is kidnapped every 43 minutes. And every 93 minutes, a woman is killed.

What does it show????

By writing this i remembered the one line of Mr. Rabindra Nath Tagore  as :

" O Lord Why have you not given women the right to conquer her destiny ?

  Why does she have to wait head bowed,

   By the roadside, Waiting with tired patience,

   Hoping for a miracle in the morrow ?"

I want to say simply at last that If this women never enters into our life then our life has no value because we start our life source as our mother and end up our life being dwelled in the earth as mothernation.

 At last I also want to share the desire of a Indian women which can be best summed up in the following lines of " Song of an African Women " :

I have only one request. 

I do not ask for money

Although I have need of it,

I do not ask for meat....

I have only one request,

And all I ask is

That you remove

The road block

From my path.

                                

India as a Shining Economy..

A one country got independence on 4th July, 1776. and nobody can predicted that this country will one day influences the every country of this world. And if this country collapses with any misery then it will influences the great economies of this world wither they are developed countries, or developing countries,,or under-developed countries. This is the country named presently as United States of America.

                              But as we are on the year 2012, and can every one predicted that how many years does it took be the most powerful country of this world, no one?

but if i simple calculated the year then i find that it took the simple 236 years, and by hearing this everyone shocked, that it is independent from the last 236 years. ans i just want to calculate the independent years of India, then i will find that we are independent from last 65 years. If i ask one question to some citizens of the country ans specially to the youngsters, then i got some replies that they are :

1- Umemployment,

2- Population,

3- Corruption,

4- Malnourishment, and many more....

But can we know something above it, as :

1- In the next three years, up to the 25% of the world's new workers will be Indian. ( Source : Indian Labour report vis The Hindu ).

2- India's GDP per capita will quadruple from 2007 to 2020, according to Goldman Sachs

3- Property prices in Mumbai and Delhi have more than doubled in the past 18 months. ( Reuters)

4-India's tech capital, Bangalore, has increased its office supply by six times since 2006, and now has more Grade-A offices than Singapore. ( C B Richard Ellis via a Business Standard)

5- Half the world’s outsourced IT services come from India, amounting to a $47 billion dollar industry (Sourcing Line)

6- Walmart alone outsources $1 billion in IT contracts to India. (SupplyChain.cn)

7- India is the world's second largest importer of arms and has spent $50 billion on defense purchases in the last decade.( Stockholm International Peace Institute via India Defence Online)

8-A bigger movie market than America and Canada combined, India sold 3.2 billion tickets last year.( Bloomberg Business week)

9- India has 568 million more registered voters than the US -- and a better turnout rate too.(The International).

10- The biggest and the largest employer in the world is Indian Railways employing over a million people.

11- India was one of the richest countries till the time of British rule in the early 17th Century. Christopher Columbus, attracted by India's wealth, had come looking for a sea route to India when he discovered America by mistake.

12-India is one of the largest exporter of computer software products.

and there are many things about the India, but nobody knows it, and due to this we always commented about the System, bit it is always necessary to know that by sitting outside the system , it is very east to comment on anything, but when you are inside the system , then you have the right to say anything about the system. 

Change the system , is necessary but we have also to participate in this changing procedures. 

              One country got the position of the top most country, and the most powerful country of this world, by invading other countries, in 236 years, and India never invaded any country in her last 100000 years and we will get the heights in just 65 years only, so wait for the next following years, we will be the most developed country and most powerful country in this world. 

                              I remember the speech of Mr. Barack Obama, as " Americans, go for the study and the research field, otherwise these Indians get every positions of yours."

We are on the journey of development and this development depended on us only, Youngsters are the first stone of this great developed India. One day our Indian Rupee is the international currency as every Country want to acquire as Dollars in present.....

ये जिंदगी है भाई।।।

ये जिंदगी है भाई ,,

क्या से क्या दिखाती है।।।

एक साल पहले ,, खुद पे बड़ा ऐतबार था ,,

अब देखा जब आइना ,,तो इस हाथ में कुछ न था ,,

सुना है पथझार में ,,सूखे पेड़ पे हरियाली फिर से आती है,,

मुझे तो इन्तेजार है उस सूखे पेड़ का फिर से हरा होने का।।।।


ये जिंदगी है भाई ,,

क्या से क्या दिखाती है।।।

जिस दौड़ में मैं हमेशा अव्वल रहा करता था ,,
आज उस दौड़ में सबसे पीछे खड़ा हु,,
दुनिया मुझसे कितनी आगे निकल गयी है जब जागा तब देखा,,
जब जागो तब सवेरा होने की आस की कोई भी किरण नहीं बची है।।


ये जिंदगी है भाई ,,

क्या से क्या दिखाती है।।।

मुझे ख़ुशी है कि कोई मेरे से ज्यादा तरिक्की कर गया है ,,
बस ये सोच के हैरान हु और अंतर्मन से परेशान हु ,,
कि मेरे अन्दर क्या कमी रह गयी है।।।


ये जिंदगी है भाई ,,

क्या से क्या दिखाती है।।।

आज आंसूं है इन आँखों में ,,
फिर भी अब कोई बोझ नहीं है ,,
पछतावा है तभी आंसूं भी है,,
मगर अब फिर से जीने की आस लगी है,,
फिर से जोश है कुछ पाने का,,
फिर से कुछ कर दिखाने  का,,
शब्र का फल मीठा होता है,,
कहा करता था कई लोगों से बार-बार,,
आज अर्थ समझ में आया है,,
फिर से पाऊंगा अपनी मंजिलों को,,
फिर से एक बार अपने हाथों की लकीरों को,,
दोबारा लिखने का मौका आया है।।।


ये जिंदगी है भाई ,,

क्या से क्या दिखाती है।।।

आज रात मुझे ये जरुर सिखला देना part4

this poem is again continued from my one of the creations titled as आज रात मुझे ये जरुर सिखला देना।।।

वो कहती है कि  इन अश्रों को बहाना अब छोड़ दो,,
ये आंसूं चेहरे पे अब अच्छे लगते नहीं ,,
मैंने कहा ये भी मुझको ठीक है,,
मगर मेरे छुपे हुए आंसुओं की कीमत क्या लौटा पाओगी तुम,,
मेरी हँसी के पीछे छुपे हुए राज को क्या बतला पाओगी तुम ,,
बस इस बात को आज मुझे बतला देना,,
आज रात ये मुझको सिखला देना।।।।


वो कहती है कि भूल जाओ सब कुछ जो हमारे बीच में हुआ था,,
मैं अपने घर को चुनती हु ,, तुमको मैं छोडती हु,,
मैंने कहा ये भी मुझको ठीक है,,
मगर बीतें कुछ सालों जो व्रत तुमने मेरे लिए रखे थे,,
उनका क्या मोल था,,क्या ये तुम जान पाओगी ,,
क्या उनका मोल तुम चुका पाओगी ,,
सोलह सोमवार के व्रत जो तुमने शिव के सामने मुझको पाने के लिए रखे थे,,
क्या उस इश्वर से नज़र तुम मिला पाओगी ,,

बस इस बात को आज मुझे बतला देना,,
आज रात ये मुझको सिखला देना।।।।


वो कहती है कि राहों में जो कोई अच्छा मिले,,
उसको तुम अपना लेना,,
मैंने कहा ये भी मुझको ठीक है,,
मगर जो रीति - रिवाजो के बीच हमारा नाता थ,,
क्या उनको तोड़ पाओगी तुम,,
जो सलिखे सिखाये थे मैंने तुमको,,
क्या उनको भूल पाओगी तुम,,
अगर भूल जाओ ,,तो वो सारे तरीके मुझे बतला देना,,
आज रात ये मुझको जरुर  सिखला देना।।।।

loving you till the last breath of my life,,AMEN...

है मेरे से बड़ा कोई दुखी इस दुनिया में,,

दिन कहता रात खुश है,,

तपन झेलेगा कोई मेरे जैसा ,,

तो जीना सिख जायेगा,,,

है  मेरे से बड़ा कोई दुखी इस दुनिया में,,

क्या कोई मेरे जैसा जीना सीख पायेगा ...

रात कहती दिन कितना खुश है,,

इतनी ठंडक क्या कोई सह पायेगा,,

जो कद्र दिन को मिलती है,,

क्या कोई वही रुतबा मुझको दे पायेगा ,,

हु शालीन मैं ,,क्या यही दोष है मेरा ,,

है  मेरे से बड़ा कोई दुखी इस दुनिया में,,

क्या कोई मेरे जैसा जीना सीख पायेगा ...

समंदर कहता मैं थक चूका हु ,,

भार सहते-सहते इस दुनिया का,,

दुनिया भर की नदियों से कह दो,,,

की अब दम नहीं बचा मुझे इतनी विपदा सहने का ,,

ग्लोबल वार्मिंग हो ,,या भूकंप के झटके,,

चाहे सुनामी हो या सैंडी के झटके,,,

सब मुझको झेलना पड़ता है,,

है  मेरे से बड़ा कोई दुखी इस दुनिया में,,

क्या कोई मेरे जैसा जीना सीख पायेगा ...

नदियाँ कहती सभ्यताओं का निर्माण मुझसे हुआ है,,

मेरे बिना जीवन नहीं है,,

मैं थक चुकी हु चलते -चलते ,,

गंदिगियों को समर्जित -विसर्जित करते -करते,,

मेरी मृत्यु समंदर में ही निहित है,,

मेरा अस्तित्व विहीन प्राण है,,,

क्या जीना मेरा इतना ही बेकार है,,

है  मेरे से बड़ा कोई दुखी इस दुनिया में,,

क्या कोई मेरे जैसा जीना सीख पायेगा ...

दुनिया के असंख्यों प्राणियों की यही एक भाषा है ,,

सब अपने ही अस्तित्व को विवेचित कर के ही बाधित है,,

इंसान हु ,,शायद इंसान से प्यार करने की ही भूल की है,,

किसी और के जैसे बनने में ,,खुद की इंसानियत को भूलते जा रहे हम,,

खुद की शक्शियत से शिकायत करते-करते,,,

इस दुनिया में किस लिए आये थे ,,भूलते जा रहे हम,,,

इस दुनिया की भीड़-भाड़ में खुद को धुंडते जा रहे हम,,

और हर समय एक ही लफ्ज कहते जा रहे हम,,,

है  मेरे से बड़ा कोई दुखी इस दुनिया में,,

क्या कोई मेरे जैसा जीना सीख पायेगा ...

और अगर मेरे जैसा कोई जीना सिख पायेगा,,,

तो असलियत में जीना सिख जाएगा ,,

तो असलियत में जीना सिख जाएगा ....

Differences between the societies....

Society can 't be understand by the font views that we have made our mind for the existence of the society. It is only be felt when you, yourself, see the society form the inner side of the society when you live in the society. Some really follows the indiscriminate views of the society and some are against that society, but they were pushed down because the peoples follows the dogmatic view of the society , don't want to change themselves.
                        I don't want to diverge about the topic, but today i felt, that there are two types of society based in the fact of understandings :-
1- first one is those who never understand the fact and theories of the others, they never listened the deeds of the others, they only judged themselves the right person in this world.
2- and the second is those who understand the facts and theories of others and if they are wrong, they committed their mistakes and does the work on a right platform with the right decision with the right approach, and i want to name those A Real Literate person.
                           first ones are illiterate because they have the problem of egoistic behavior, I don't say that you should not contain the ego, but everything should be in the limit, A famous constitution line should be mentioned here, that A Freedom of yours finished there where you are indulging with the nose of others, so be egoistic but in the limits, That will increase your high thinking and surely it will lead towards the nice place in the dogmatic society.
                          Some people might be not satisfied with me by this view, that they should get the power by the sake of money only, but some where, sometime they are wrong, in their thinking, No doubt, they got the perfect place in the society but it is in the under limit of time, the society itself backbitched them when they are living or after their death their name will be on the lapse name list and no one will remember them.
                            But when A literate person argue with the society and takes place the decision with all the real views and then this society respect them and always remember them either they lived in this society or not. Because they win the heart of the society not by the physical means but by the deeds. And Deeds never died it always be with you as a soul mate.
                  So be in the perfect of the deeds because it is the only thing by which you existed in this earth and they will always be with your mind and soul...

Need of a new society...

Everywhere i am seeing the lovely nature of many couples, some of them are fighting with each other and make their love and some are making love and they have no worry that this world is seeing what they are doing, but actually i want to ask one question that is it necessary to think about this world???? and about this conservative and dogmatic society who also don't know about what is their meaning itself.....
                                       Their thinking never understand by anyone in this world because they seems that they are the perfect ones and that person who break their rules has no right to live in this  world. I just want to discriminate one thing that who their are to judge that we are the existing ones or not, they are from us  not we are from us. We make them not they make us.
                                    From the past, means from the ancient times, society has been changing since the time has been passed they why they don't change their thoughts, and their manner to change the society, History and civilization all over the world proved that if they doesn't change themselves then they seamlessly end their civilization by their own hands. So why they doesn't understand the present need of the society.
                                   Move on the topic, Love exist everywhere, and if any persons love someone then they are standing against the crowd of society which seamlessly told them to expell out from the society, They want to live and sustain the new dimensions of this society, but it is very difficult for them to change this society, because they are in a small number, and some of them have no courage to see the new dimensions and to fight for their values that they are seeking from their bottom heart.
                                    I suggest to all of them who really want to change this dogmatic society and their conservative rules, Fight with the real spirit and express yourself with the real person  this world kneel down in  front of you, and you will be the king of this new society, so stand up, boost your morals and confidence, collect your energy to change this world because it is very easy to describe the black face of this society and discuss their rules that they have to be changed, but by saying only, there is no solution. So come and change this society, otherwise this society extract your rights and your independence from yourself towards right now.
                            Because A New Dawn Of A New Society Just Needs You.....

मेरे इख़्तियार में तू नहीं थी शायद ,,

मेरे इख़्तियार में तू नहीं थी शायद ,,
इसलिए तू कहीं अकेला चुपचाप  बैठा ह,,
रोजरोज सुनता हुईं तेरे ही बारे में कुछ,
सिर्फ सुन के ही तुझको महसूस करता हूँ।।।

हमेशा सोचता था,,की प्यार साचा हो तो सब कुछ मिल  है,,
मगर आज फिर से एहसास ,होता है,
कि कर्म मुझको फिर से मेरा अक्स मुझको मेरे ही आईने में दिखाता है।।।

खुदा से अमीन-ए-शाही का रुतबा माँगा था शायद,,
इसीलिए उसने मुझको तुझको छोड़ के सब मेरी किस्मत में लिखता है,,
राजी होंगी वो खुशकिस्मत हवाएं भी शायद,,
जो तुझको और मुझको  सहत कभी सोचता है ...

वक़्त की कसौटी में हम खड़े है शायद,,
इसीलिए हर समय गिरने का एहसास होता है,,
वक्र की दीवारों में कब तक रुतबा थए गा ,,,
एक न एक दिन उसको भी नुर्मैयाँ करना पड़ेगा,,

रंजिशों से कुछ नहीं मिलता ये सिख के आज ये गम होता है,,
वो गम शायद उसको भी हुआ होगा,,
जिसको छोड़ के कुछ समय पहले मैं अपने जुत्बो से कभी  निकला था,,

वजीफो की अशिकुई में बहुत मौशिकी देखि थी शायद मैंने,,
इसलिए किसी ने मुझको तुम जैसा समझ के दिखा।।।।


मेरे इख़्तियार में तू नहीं थी शायद ,,
इसलिए तू कहीं अकेला चुपचाप  बैठा ह,,
रोजरोज सुनता हुईं तेरे ही बारे में कुछ,
सिर्फ सुन के ही तुझको महसूस करता हूँ।।।

Immortal Love.......

This blog is totally dedicated to my love, who never want to leave me, but know one thing that we will bot be lived together, these lines are told by her to me that our love will be immortal but what the things we want in our life is never be completed.....

उस हवा को पाने की कोशिश कभी मत कर,,,

जो तेरे घर की ओर कभी नहीं बह सकती।....

उस तसवीर  को बनाने की भी कोशिश तू क्यों करता है,,,

 जिनके रंगों की कमी ये दुनिया भी कभी भी पूरी नहीं कर सकती।...

तुझे उस अमरत्व को पाने की क्या जरुरत है,,,,

जिसको इस दुनिया में पाने की एक अल्म्बी होड़ लगी हुई।...

तुझे उन साँसों को महसूस करने की क्या प्यास है,,,,

जन साँसों के बिना भी हम यहाँ जी सकते है।....

उन अनजान राहों से तुमको गुजरने की क्या जरुरत,,,

जिन राहों के बिना भी तुम अपनी मंजिल तक पहुच सकते हो।.....

इस दुनिया में अब हमे रहने की क्या जरुरत है,,,

जब इस दुनिया में हमारे मिलन का कोई वक़्त नहीं।....

मत सोचो हमारे मिलन की कोई भी एक रात,,,

इस जनम में उसको पाने की खुदा ने इस जनम में कोई शय लिखी नहीं।...

मुहब्बत कर लिया है,,तनहा रह भी लेंगे आखरी वक़्त तक,,,

मरने के बाद जन्नत में मिलेंगे,,हाथ थामे हुए तब सबसे कहेंगे,,

की अब अलग कर के देखो,हम एक हो चुके है,,,

तब हम शाबित करेंगे की ये दुनिया हमारे लिए लायक नहीं।......

Love you.....someone,,.....

टुटा दिल भी कभी कुछ बयां करता है,
सुनोगे उसको तो वो भी अपनी कहानी कहता है,,
किस्से तो बहुत है प्यार के किताबो में पड़ने लायक,,
मगर पड़ने के बाद इसका दर्द असली पता चलता है।......

शायर हूँ मैं,,बहुत नामोशुराब का,,,
सब देख के ही मुझको बड़ा अच्छा लगता है,,,
जब सुनाता हूँ मैं अपनी लिखी हुई पंक्तियाँ तुमको शब्दों में उतार के,,,
समझे कोई,,या न समझे कोई,,मगर तालियों की गूँज में अबोशाराब दीखता है,,,
जब बैठी होती है तस्र्रीफ लगाये तुम मेरी महफ़िल में,,,
तब अपनी लेखनी में एक अलग मंद ग्रवित मिलता है।.....

तुमको चाहने और पाने में बहुत फर्क था लेकिन,,
इस बात को समझने में पूरी उम्र निकल गयी भी लेकिन,,
हाथों की लकीरों को समझा दिया है अगले जनम के लिए ,,
आना तो उसका नाम लेके आना मेरी किस्मत में,,,
वर्ना इन हाथों में तुम कोरे ही बन के आ जाना,,,
मुझको अपने कर्मो में घमंड नहीं है लेकिन,,
मगर तुझको पाने के लिए इन हाथों में भी तुमको रच दूंगा,
होंगी इतनी गहरी रेखाए वो मेरे हाथ में,,,
की खुदा भी सोचेगा की इश्क बनाके  उसने गलत किया।.....

सपने मेरे कुछ अधूरे से,,

सपने मेरे कुछ अधूरे से,,
और  कुछ पुरे से हो गए,,,,
चाहो तो एक दुआ मांग लूँ,,
नाराज न होना,,
अगर मैं आज तुझको मांग लूँ।...

सपने मेरे कुछ अधूरे से....

जिंदगी नहीं है मगर मेरी,
आंखिरी साँसों में,,
तुम्हारी एक बार महक मांग लूँ,,,,
बीते पलों को याद करके,,
तेरी एक मुस्कराहट मांग लूँ।....

सपने मेरे कुछ अधूरे से....

मुझे शिकायत है,,
अपने उस खुदा से,,,
की मेरी आँखों के सपने ,,
उसने किसी और के हाथों की लकीरों में क्यों बनाये,,,
इन हाथों की एक बार जरा सी जरुरत तो देखि होती,,
तो उसको मेरे ऊपर कुछ दया जरुर आई होती।....

सपने मेरे कुछ अधूरे से....

आखिरी साँसों में मुझे तो तुम्हारा साथ नहीं,,
तेरी तस्वीर अपने अश्कों में चाहिए,,,
मेरी तो बस चाहत बस साथ में बिताये गए वो पलों की है,,
जिसमे सिर्फ तेरी और मेरी ख़ामोशी की गूँज हो।....


सपने मेरे कुछ अधूरे से,,
और  कुछ पुरे से हो गए.......

तुम नहीं थे साथ कभी......

तुम नहीं थे साथ कभी,, न साथ हो आज अभी,,,
फिर क्यों ये दिल बहलाता है मुझको आज कहीं,,
ये धोका है तसवुर की एक तस्वीर का,,
फिर से हर बार तेरा ही चेहरा क्यों बार बार दिखता है...

मेरे आँगन की एक छाया थी तुम कभी,,
आज वही पे धुप की बेला बन गई हो तुम,,
धोका हुआ है ऐसे की,,मेरे लिए एक साया हो तुम,,
उस अग्न का भी एक महरूम कोमल रोया बन गई हो तुम।...

आज कशिश होती है किसी से स्पर्श से जब कभी,,
तो कोई बेह्रुमियों सा अपना सा एहसास होता है,,
है धोका,, ये जान के भी ख़ुशी का वो पल होता है,,
बिना शारीर मिले भी,,दूरियां न हो,,इसका अब एहसास होता है।...

है आँखों सी बद्री की एक घटा हो तुम,,
अब तो उन अश्रों में भी नाम सिर्फ तेरा होता है,,
है धोका,,फिर भी ये दर्द बड़ा अपना लगता है,,
प्यार किया है,,समझाया था किसी ने,,की मत पड़ना,
मगर तुझको पाके अब अमरत्व का एहसास अब एहसास होता है।...

मेरे हाथों की लकीरे रोज बदलती है,,
धुन्दता रहता हुईं उसमे कहीं न कहीं तेरा नाम लिखा होता है,,
खुदा से बस एक उम्मीद है,,,की मेरे हाथों की लकीरे में सिर्फ तेरा नाम हो,,
वर्ना इन हाथों की लकीरों का भी कोई फलसफा सा कोई नाम न हो।....

सब धोके है,,समय की विरासियत का,,
फिर भी क्यों ये तेरे ही नाम से आज जिन्दा रहते है।....

तुम नहीं थे साथ कभी,, न साथ हो आज अभी......

मेरा प्यार।....

वो मुझसे दूर ,,है जैसे दिल से धड़कन,,,
वो मेरे पास है,,,जैसे नदियों से उसका किनारा,,,
हमारा प्यार है जैसे,,,कोई नदी की एक हो धरा,,,
जुदा भी है,,,पास भी है,,,फिर भी है,,,मोतियों की एक माला...

वो मेरी आँखों के सामने ,है,,जैसे हो मेरे अक्स का ही एक साया,,,
वो मेरे मुख में है,,जैसे हो मेरी ही शब्दों की एक माया,,,
राहों पे पथ है वो मेरा,,,जैसे मेरे ही लक्ष्य का एक काया,,,
अधूरे सपनो के पुरे होने की  एक मंगल छाया,,,,

जनम मरण की एक पहेली का एक अनोखी सी बाधा,,
प्यार बिन जीना हा,,,ये जीने बिन प्यार के,,,
ये एक अजीब सी है एक छोटी सी काधा ,,
मरने के बाद स्वर्ग मिलेगा या,,,इस दुनिया को स्वर्ग बनाना है,,,,
इस अजीब सी उलझन में ये एक कृष्ण की एक राधा है,,,,

विसंगतियों से भरी हुई,, संगतियों से छुपी हुई,,,
ये अजीब सी एक माया है,,,,
मिलोगे इस से तो एकसास होगा ,,
की ये सिर्फ एक अनोखा सा छल रूपी साया है,,,

इस दुनिया में बहुत से आईने देखें मैंने,,,
तेरे जैसा साचा अक्स न देख पाया मई,,,
खुद को पाया ,,शायद सचे ईमान से,,
शक्शियत जो थी मेरी,,,वो पूरी हुई,,,
तेरे दीदार को जब से मैंने अपना माना है।...

रोई हुई पलकों में अश्रों की एक झाला है,,,
उन अश्रों में भी तेरे ही अक्स के छाया है,,,
करीब आ जाओ,,,गले लग जाओ,,,
वर्ना दूसरा समंदर बनने में,,,
अब कोई भी नहीं दूसरी माया है।....

love you.....

काश....

हम मिलेंगे किसी साहिल के छोड़ पर,,,
खुले आसमान के नए आवाम में,,
समंदर को न ख़तम होते हुए देखते--देखते,,,
अपने प्यार को याद करते-करते,,,
कुछ यादों के फलसफे बयाँ करते--करते,,,
एक दुसरे की बाहों में सिमटे हुए,,,
कहीं न कहीं से,,,हर समय साथ रहे,,,
उस समय ये एहसास हो ,जाए,,
की सिर्फ तुम मेरी हो और मैं तेरा हूँ,,
हम दोनों जीते है तो सिर्फ साथ में रहने के ,लिए,,

किसी से कुछ न ,पूछे कभी,,
साथ में चलते रहे मिलो दूर,,,
बेवजह प्यार ,करे,,
दूरियों को कोई निशाँ न हो,,,
इतने करीब हम हो,,,
मैं तेरा,,,ये तुम मेरे हो,,,
इसमें भी कोई संचय न हो,,,
राशी भी सोचे की ये किसकी भविष्य को बताये,,,
राहें भी हमारी एक जैसी हो,,,
जिस राह में चले,,,वो हमारे मिलन की ही एक रेखा हो,,,
भाव्यजाल में डूबे रहे,,,किसी से कुछ न पूछे,,,

जब हाथ हो मेरे तेरे हाथ में,,,
तो किसी चीज की कमी न हो,,,
तेरे प्यार के रंग में अपना रंग का कोई मतलब न हो,,,
उस नए विधमान भविष्य का एक अलग ही अतिशयोक्ति हो,,,
की तुम मुझमे या मैं तुझमे हुईं,,,
इसका भी एहसास अब हम दोनों में न हो।.....

काश तुम मेरे साथ ,होती,,
तो ये दिन और ये रात,,,,
भी सिर्फ अपने होते,,,
और हम साथ में होते।.....

Love u .......

ये इश्क भी कितना गैर परवाह है....

ये इश्क भी  कितना गैर परवाह है,,

कि इसको सिर्फ अपना ही  एक अक्स दीखता है ,,

दूर से कितना खूबसूरत सा आइना सा है लगता ,,

पास जाकर एक आंसूं की एक बूँद पड़ने से ,,

अक्स यूँ बिखर जाता ,,कि अक्स नहीं,,  

वो तो जल का एक नया अविरम है,,,

जो भूम-भूम धूमिल होता है,,

आज किसी और के संग,,

कल किसी और के संग होता,,,

ये इश्क भी  कितना गैर परवाह है....

दूर से ये एक सुन्दर सा पुष्प सा है लगता,,

पास जाकर एक काटों का भ्रमजाल सा आविर्भूत सा होता,,

भ्रम की एक मुस्कान से सबको अपनी ओर आकर्षित कर ले जाता,,

भ्रमजाल के एक बार चकर से की नहीं छुट पाता ,,

इतना आकर्षित ये भ्रमजाल है कि ,,

इसके जाल से कोई नहीं निकलना चाहता ,,

 फसना हर कोई है चाहता,,

ये इश्क है ही एक ऐसी चीज,,

बस हर कोई किसी न किसी से इश्क करना है चाहता,,,

ये इश्क भी  कितना गैर परवाह है,,

घमंडी है ये ,,अपने आगे किसी और की नहीं चलने देता,,

घुमाता है अपने आगे अपनी ही एक नयी धुन में,,

हमे बस नाचने को मजबूर ही कर देता,,,

ये इश्क भी  कितना गैर परवाह है.....

Love is a Crime...

In India, when the constitution made, then there are many policies and rules made over it. Basically, they made rule if you did any mistake in your life which interrupt the society and even if its disturbs your home itself. But they made the rules on Robbery, Murder,Rape,etc,,etc,,but they never made any rule which can be applied on LOVE, If a person did the robbery, murder, rape, then there are predefined rules on him that he has to go prison or relaxed by some money. He has only some trauma in his mind for some days, but after some days or some years, he will be relaxed when he went out from his prison. But Can anyone made the decision on LOVE?
                 I think that there is no one.......

Why no one made any policy in constitution on love, either it is the most painful and the biggest mistake of the life even it disturbs the society rules, the home itself disturbs or moreover it lays the greatest trauma in the mind of a true lover. From the morning till the next morning itself, he has only one thing in mind about his love, that either she is well or not, and now a days, the regular messaging service continuously flows on, and if by chance of network failure then it could led the stress on him, that if he had the control on the network provider then he murdered him for the sake of bad network that his company provided him....
                   
                          All the career will be overflow from the mind if Love insect insert into the mind, even if we called it as a VIRUS, and whom antivirus does not invent in the market itself, it is the virus that make the life of any person more than worse, i don't say that it prevails always because there are many friends of mine whose love life is awesome, and i blessed them all that they will be successful in their love life, but what is the matter of others, I guarantee that mostly in the Mad Asylum , mostly 60-70% are coming from the problem of love not mainly in the case of girlfriends and all, either they have not get any chance to see the love of family, their friends and their partners....

                  Love i really a crime by my views, because it is the most trauma diseases that i had been seen, everytime you have only one mind, it should be banished in the society. But i just negotiate with my views, can this society and the human kind exist with the feelings of love??
                             Then i realized that love is the feelings that a person in his life from the birth to last pal of life. Actually Love is the soul of a human kind and if you don't believe in it, then you are not the person who understand the humankind, and the existence if your life...
Love happens when you need it,,,,
Love happens when it desires you,,,,
Love happens when it only belongs to you,,,,
Love happens when tears and laughs have no difference,,,,
When Love happens,,then every things happens,,
Love doesn't exist in my life,because,,
It is the only thing in my life which,,
can understand me,,trust on me,,,and only rely on me.....

( Love never dies,,,it always glows in the heart of a true lover.....)

मुलाक़ात दोबारा....

मिलेंगे हम कभी अगर जिंदगी में दोबारा,,
तो फिर वाही साथ की यादें और बात करेंगे,,
शायद फिर हम एक साथ कुछ पल खुश रहेंगे,,
शायद हम फिर कुछ पल खुश रहेंगे....

हमारा पहली मुलाक़ात में कितना एक दुसरे को था चिड़ाना,,
एक दुसरे की बेजत्ति में कितना खुसी को था पाना,,
जब मगर अकेले में होना,,तो एक दुसरे से फिर से माफ़ी मांगना,,
मगर फिर से वाही बात दोहराए जाना,,और फिर से वाही उसी बात पे लड़ जाना,,
शायद वो भी कुछ हसी के पल जिए थे,,,
हमने कितने आचे पल साथ में जिए थे,,,

मिलेंगे हम कभी अगर जिंदगी में दोबारा,,
तो  पहले स्पर्श को याद करेंगे ,,
वो एक दुसरे की की बाहों  में रहना याद करेंगे,,
वो समन्दर की लहरों से साथ में लड़ना याद करेंगे,,
वो घंटो-घंटो  शांत बैठ की गयी बातें याद करेंगे,,
तेरा रोना,मेरा मनाना ,,मेरा रोना ,तेरा मानना,,
उन अश्रो के पलों को फिर से याद करेंगे,,
शायद हम  तब भी एक दुसरे से बहुत करते होंगे,,
शायद हम  तब भी एक दुसरे से बहुत करते होंगे....

मगर एक बात तब भी हम कहेंगे ,,
की हम तेरा  इन्तेजार तब भी करते रहेंगे,,
तब भी हम उतना ही  प्यार उतना ही करेंगे।...

(I still love you,,,i will continuously love you.....)

अपने विचारों के भंवर में ,,

अपने विचारों  के भंवर में ,,

कहीं डूबता कहीं उमरता ,,

में अपने विचारों के भाव्यजाल में,,

कहीं सूबता ध्रव्यजाल में मै ,,

रास्ता खोता रहा है मेरा,,

कहीं धीमा ,कहीं सुस्त जाल  में ,,

मंजिले अधर  सी रह गयी है मेरी ,,

अब इन विचारों के भाव्यजाल में,,

राहें जो चुनता हु सीधी -साधी सी मैं ,

वो बदलती है एक मकरी के जाल में,,

कोई नहीं है बतलाने वाला ,कोई नहीं है  बचाने वाला,,

मुझे इन ध्रव्यजाल से,,

राहे जो चुनी थी मैंने,,

भरोषा न था की वोही मुझको बेह्कएँगी ,,

टूट चूका हु मैं अब यहाँ पे ,,

की अब दीखता नहीं,,

मेरा भविष्य विस्मयी है कहाँ पे।.....

(to be continued...)

Three facts of A Life..

Life starts with a cry and without a cry, it never starts, But when we are increasing towards the ages of life, then we feel many true facts of life, sometimes hateness, sometimes lovely creatures seem around us, some times we fought against our hectic schedules and we don't get the time for everything. But the three facts of life which never change in our life that are:

Three facts of a Life :-

1- Your tears always rolls down infront of that person only whom you love or he/she love you with pure 

feelings...

2- When a person moves from your life, who is most important for you and for whom you want to left anything 

in this world, then he/she always give something when he/she lefts you,and that thing is never understand by you 

at that time, but that thing changed your life and he/she and you also don't know about that thing, but you 

realized with in some time and you thanked your beloved ones, but at that time he/she is not in your life...

.

3- Love never be dies, it always faces you in many faces, from birth to die,,either in the form of mom, dad, 


brother, sister, Girl friends,Boy friends, sons, daughters, and most loving all relationship,,,so love always 


completed in many forms so will be waiting for every love pals.....

जिंदगी  को गले लगाना  है शायद ,

इसीलिए इन्तेजार करती है हरपल का शायद,,

जी लो इसे खूब  जितना जी सकते हो ,,

क्योंकि ये पल न आयेंगे कभी लौटकर शायद .....

i am really happy that i have all the loved ones in my life,,and wished they will always be there for me...

Happy Mother's day...

On the best day of all 365 and 6 hours of a single year,,,,My all heart-beats that I had been taken,,all dedicated to my mother, and All the pulses of my life, every single moment which would be happen in my life,,will only be belong to the most charming,a most energetic lady in my life who always inspires me to do things always perfectly, and she is my mother..Happy Mother's Day Mummy..
Mother is a best and a first friend of every child and mostly a first girlfriend of every boy.... Love u mom.... And Happy Mother's Day to all mothers of this fake and competitive world where you are only the existence  of this world....
when we fall apart and got injury, then you are the healing for us,,,
when we something important in our life, then you are the path-finder for us,,,
when we shattered for any reason, then you are the motivation for us...
And I have no words to explained the definition of a Mother....
But , i have only one word for you that, You are simply a GOD for us,,,
and i have not seen any single face of the God, but i know it seems to be like as you...
Happy Mother's day to all the mothers of this world and one poem is dedicated to you :-

बचपन से एक नाव पर,

बैठा हु मैं आज तक,

बहुत देखें तूफान मैंने,

इस छोटी सी उम्र में,

बहुत देख लिए भंवर मैंने,

डूब जाता मैं समंदर में ,

अगर तुम न होती,

आज बैठा हुईं जिस साहिल में,

वहां भी न होता मैं,

अगर तुम न होती,

आज hu जहाँ पर भी ,

बचपन से धुंडने जिसको,

न मिलता वो मुझको,

अगर तुम न होती,

लक्ष्य मैंने तुमको बतलाया,

राह तुमने मुझको दिखलाई,

पहुचता न मैं वहां पर,

न मिलता वो मुझको,

अगर तुम न होती,

माँ अगर तुम न होती,

ये शीश नवा हैं ,

तेरे पदकमलो पे,

तू न होती तो,

क्या अस्तित्व था हमारा,

सोच के भी रोते हैं,

ये सोच के भी रूह कापती हैं,

माँ अगर तुम न होती,

जुदा न होना हमसे कभी,

बस ये गुजारिश दिल से करते हैं,

माँ हम आप से बहुत प्यार करते हैं,

बस कहने में थोडा हिचकते हैं,

माँ हम आपसे बहुत प्यार करते हैं,

बचपन से जिस नाव पर,

बैठे हु मैं आज तक,

दूब जाता मैं समंदर में ,

अगर टीम न होती,

माँ अगर तुम न होती...!!!

ये मेरी दुनिया .....

कुछ  पलों को बिताने चले थे हम,,

जब रखे थे इस दुनिया में नए कदम,,,

कुछ  अनजाने से,,या कुछ पहचाने से,,,

कुछ रुलाने क,,,कुछ हँसाने के,,,

मगर कुछ भी थे,,

सब  याद  रखेंगे  हम।...

ये  मेरी  दुनिया ,,मेरे  यारों की दुनिया,,

कहो तो चार साल की छोटी सी कहानी लिख गये हम।..

पहली बार माँ के आँचल  से दूर हुए  थे हम,,

पापा के आशीष  से जुदा हुए थे हम,,

आँखों में आंसूं भी थे ,, कुछ सपने भी,,,

बस  कुछ  अनजान  रास्तों  को पार करने के लिए,,

नयी-नयी मंजिल  को पाने के लिए,,

घर छोड़ के निकले थे हम....

ये मेरी दुनिया,,

रागिंग  से दुनिया की शुरुआत हुई,,

चाँद को गली देना,,जब तक  बुझ  न  जाए,,

उस  दिन को भी याद करते है हम,,

14-16 रुपैये मिलके,,चिल्ली पोतातो की 

हाल्फ पेलेट को खरीदने के दिन भी याद करेंगे हम,,

फेकेल्टी से उनकी शादी और बर्थडे की पार्टी मांगते मांगते बेशर्मी तक,,

वो दिन कभी नहीं भूलेंगे हम ,,

जिन्होंने दे दिया,,उनको याद रखेंगे हम,,

और जिन्होंने नहीं दिया,,

उनको उनकी इस बात के लिए कभी भी भूल  नहीं पायेंगे हम।..

हमने आपका नमक  खाया है,,इस बात को कभी नहीं भूलेंगे हम।.

फर्स्ट इयर से लेकर आजतक ,,गर्ल  फ्रंड बनाने की होड़ लगी थी सब को,,

आज भी वाही सिंग्ले रह गए,,ये बात  से जलते है हम,,

बीज  कोई और डाले,,खेती और कोई काटें,,

इस  कहावत का सही मतलब आज सीखते है हूम,,

फायनल  इयर में आके किसी के कमिटेड  होने से कितने लोगों के दिल य टूटे है,,

इसकी गिनती करते थकते नहीं है हम।..

लैला मजनू भी कभी-कभी सोचते होगे,,,क्या इश्क  किया था हमने,,,

की हमारा नाम  लेते-लेते,,क्या-क्या न कर लिया साड़ी नौज्वानियत  ने ,,

बस हम थे जो  बस  मर गए,,एक कहानी लिख  गए,

साले कसमो के अलावा कुछ भी नहीं खाते है हमारे नाम  पे,,

बस प्यार करते चले जाते है,,और एक बार भी याद नहीं करते है ये सब।.

ये मेरी दुनिया,,कुछ  मुहबत  से भरी,,कुछ टकराव से भरी,,

इस जिन्दी को जीने का मजा भी है अलग,,

जैसे मीठे का स्वाद ,,आखिर  मिलता हो तीखा खाने के संग,,

ख़ुशी का एहसास होता ही,,कोई हारने के संग,,

नौकरी की क्या औकाद होती है,,इसका भी तब पता चलता है,,

की किसी दोस्त  का हो जाए तब इसका एहसास होता है,,

की जब घर वाले पूछते है ,की तेरे में क्या कमी रह गयी थी,,

की तेरा नहीं हुआ,,तुम्हरे दोस्त का हो गया थ,,

तुम्ही ने पड़ी नहीं की हो,,तुम ही घूमते रहते होगे,,

पैसा इसी दिन के लिए ,,, बर्बाद किया था,की तुमको पड़ा दूं ,,

इन तानो के बाद नौकरी के स्वाद का मजा अलग होता है,,

तब उस  पल  के वक़्त दो आंसुओं का कोई भी मोल  तोल  नहीं सकता है,,

करोरो की खुशियाँ ,,उस वक़्त निछावर करने का मन करता है,,

उधार में सबको पिलाने का भी मन करता है।...

ये दुनिया।..

आज  जब  छोड़ के चले हैं हम,,

रोते भी है,,पछताते भी है,,

और सोचते भी है,,की ये चार साल  इतनी जल्दी बीत गए,,

ये सोच  के,,समय  के सामने सर झुकाते है भी है।.

वादा कोई नहीं करते है हम,,

मगर ऐ दोस्तों  तुमको याद करते रहेंगे हम,,

भूलने की तो बात करते ही नहीं है हम,,

सालों,तुम लोग  भुलाने दोगे भी नहीं,,

इस बात को भी  जानते है  हम।..

मेरी दुनिया,,छोटी सी दुनिया,,

कुछ यादों की,,कुछ  बातों  की,,

मगर कुछ भी कहो,,

तुम  सब  याद आओगे बहत,,
इस बात  को भी बहुत  अची तरह से जानते है हम ।..

My Infosys experience..

There is an announcement that TPO held a meeting for the final year student. And as we are the students of final year and the most important thing the placement year. And a huge tension from the family side is like as a huge stone daily fall on our heads, from the last three year, i hear some common dialogue from my pa,:
1- Khana kha liya,
2- Kahan ho?
3- ( and if you called him ), paise chahiye honge isiliye call kiya hai..
       and i am confirmed about this this is also the case of some of my friends. But as soon as i reached the final year, they mugged up all the question to one question that:
COMPANY KOI AAYI KI NAHIN,,AAGE KA KYA PLAN HAI,,PLACEMENT SHURU HUA KI NAHIN...
and we are always answered one thing, that its only starting. and TPO informed about the meeting then we hope for a good news.
                                   But TPO along with the repected Director General Sir ( the first person in the college whom i respect a lot...) asked one question from about 600-700 students. Which one you want? either Infosys or TCS? some are confused about the company, some are asking for both companies, and many confusing arises there. But TPO confirmed about the most sensational thing that in these two companies only one will be coming, then what will you choose? and seamlessly, a cut nail competition is arises there, and as a non technical guy like me, i know one thing that Infosys is the only option for me, because they don't ask any technical question in their selection process. And as  last my wish to the God has been successfully mentioned and Infosys will be coming, But TPO never say this line.
                                          After two weeks TPO never confirmed about the company. And at last he gave the date that Infosys will be coming on 1-Sept-2011. and we have only one week for prepration. As i am a Career Launcher student ( a best coaching for CAT preparation) everyone commented on a CL students that written paper is easy for you, and we have to struggle more than you, but this line sometimes pinned you in a heart.
                             But this lines some times also relaxed us, but unfortunately the two brilliant guys, Ankur Jain and Rohit Jindal of my IT department,with the permission of Our H.O.D. Mr. Adesh Kumar Pandey ( the man who give his 100% effort in the behalf  of the students, and the first person who admires about management and how to tackle with the authorites ) organises the Infosys Practice Paper. And when i am sitting to give that paper, then literally i found me under the grave if i am preparing for the CAT. and it gives me a best shock, and from that day, I picked up the R.S.Aggarwal, but as one of my friend in AKG told me that only solved those type of questions which mostly asked by the Infosys.
                                    So i am trying to solve all those type of questions which one mostly asked by the Infosys, and i am ,,and mostly everyone of engineering student know one thing that they qualified the Quant Section ( Infosys asked 30 maths question in which 5 of direction test, 5 of Data Interpretation, 10 of Logical reasoning, 5 of Figure Test, 5 of General Maths. These questions are asked in my paper, so don't dependent on it blindly.) but what about the English Paper, most difficult by the infosys because Quant section you have to done within 40 minutes but english section you should be done within 30 minutes, and when I asked about the test paper with my seniors placed in Infosys, then they have only one answer, Clear with English, then you have been selected in Infosys. But There is also a misconception about the Cut-Offs, because some of my friends told the different scenario of Infosys that their cut-offs will be ranging between 12-14 or 10-11, but the infosys has always maintained the cut-off standard as 20 in english and 18 in quant, which is sometime be difficult. but we will hope for the best.
                                 The pressure is really awesome, so to reduce this awesome pressure, I,with my two dearest friend Abhinav and Vibhor, we went to Pizza Hut. We choose Pizza Hut because of two reasons :
1- To eat Pizza, that the basic answer. but
2- To check our communication, ( I know this is the silly thing, but what can i don ,when i do then i do..)
                              And that morning has been came, and at morning, Vibhor picked us, and me, Abhinav and Vibhor, were going to College. Then we see the face of many of our friends, we all in formals, and really everyone is looking dashing and smart. Now we were waiting for the Infosys presentation, but huge surprise, first they took the test and then they gave the presentation. So , heart beat is on its peak, and everybody decided to sit plan accordingly to cheat,etc, etc...but i sit lonely in the middle of order and i know one thing there is a wastage of time, so concentrate on ourself.
                          Paper has been arrived, and first paper is of Maths, and i know this is the little bit easy, and i solved all the questions because it has no negative marking. And then the english paper has been come and by seeing this i see one thing the difficulty level , and i started to solve this, and i solved according to the time which is shown by my watch, that i have only 10 minutes to left, but when the invigilator tell the time that we have 20 minutes left, then i am really happy because i solved all questions except Comprehension, and 15 minutes are too sufficient for me, and I solved it easily.
                               Then Waiting period is over, and Infosys presentation has been started, with the two perfect communicator ( smart and dashing also...) Miss Shaan with his colleague Mr. Abhimanyu Jain. The presentaton is awesome and really i have no words for their presentation. But they also announced that the written result will be waited out within two hours and you have to wait for that two hour.
                                     Now, again the time is over, and the list is out, They have announced the name, Vibhor,.........Abhinav......and list is over,,,,only with 75 names...my heart is just stopped. and they said, and some list will be coming within one or two hour. then my heart again start to pump. And the i congratulate Vibhor and Abhinav, for their names in the list, and they were going for the interview.
                                One hour has been passed......Two hour has been passed......Three hour has been passed......Fourth hour has been passed...the time came upto 4pm and we are just waiting for the result. Now at last the result has been arrived, and they are starting to took the names. One list is out ,,,and i am not in the list of next 25, ( only 25 names in one list), then second list is out, and again i am not in the list, and third list is announicing, and my heart is just soon to be stopped, and my name is on the third list, and that time my words are " Oh God, Thank you.." and one of my tears has been rolled down.
                                When all the list is announced then i see the other faces that whom we think that they should be on the list, their names are not on the list, but that time i see my true friends, and I really thanks Rahul, Ravi, Horesh, Shuklaji, Nikhil, told me one statement, and i never forget that statement , " Bacha, Ja taiyari kar jakar, tera hona hi chahiye, all the best, aur hum jante hai tera ho jayega...and give me a tight hug..." ( Love you guyz...) And again the waiting period is started.
                                          And my name is announced for the interivew at 8 pm. and i am sitting out of the cabin. And my name has been announced......

( This blog had a lot of content so i wrote all my Infosys Interview Experince on my next blog,,My Infosys Interview Experience, and thanks a lot for reading this blog impatiently...)
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Aaj rat mujhe ye jarur sikhla dena......(continue..)

this is the blog continued from date

saturday, july 24, 2010

तुमने कहा खुश रही हमेशा,

मैं हमेशा खुश रहूँ,,

ये भी मुझको ठीक है,,

मगर तेरे बिन कैसे खुश रहूँ,,

ये मुझको बतला देना,,

आज रात को ये मुझको सिखला देना...

तुमने कहा की भूल जाओ मुझको,

मैं तेरे लिए बनी नहीं,,

तू मेरी न थी,,थी मेरी कभ भी नहीं,,

ये भी मुझको ठीक है,,

मगर तुझको भुलाने के बाद मैं कैसे अपने आपको याद रखूं,,

ये मुझको बतला देना,,

आज रात को ये मुझको सिखला देना...

तुमने कहा अब मेरे बगैर जीना सिख लो,,

चलो आज मैंने जीना सिख लिया,,

ये भी मुझको ठीक है,,

मगर साँसों के बिना कैसे जिया जाता है,,

ये मुझको बतला देना,,

धड़कन के बिना कैसे रहा जाते है,,

ये मुझको बतला देना,,

आज रात को ये मुझको सिखला देना...

तुम हर बात पे शुक्रिया जरती हो,,

जब जानती हो की गावरान नहीं मुझको,,

अब सुनना भी सिख लिया,,

ये भी मुझको ठीक है,,

मगर कैसे अपने आईने के अक्स का चेहरा धो लूं,,

ये मुझको बतला देना,,

आज रात को ये मुझको सिखला देना...

तुम कहती हो की आंसूं तेरे चेहरे प् जचते नहीं,,

मत बहाया करो इनको मुझपे,,

चलो आज से आंसूं एक भी नहीं गिरेगा,,

ये भी मुझको ठीक है,,

फिर भी,इनको बहाने में तुझको क्या मजा आता है,,

मुझको रुलाने में क्या ख़ुशी मिलती है तुझको,,

ये मुझको बतला देना,,

आज रात को ये मुझको सिखला देना...

 

(for my love..I love you always with the whole feelings of my heart and continue doing this till the end of my life... AMEN....)

( to be continued....)

चाहत कुछ बेगानी सी

वो समझते  हैं,, वो पहचानते हैं,,

शायद वो चाहते है मुझको,,

ये किस्मत है या,,

कोई तोहफा किसी का..

कुछ भी हो,,वो साथ रहे  हमेशा ,,

बस खुदा से मांगते ये हम हैं...

मिलते  नहीं है हम अपनी  रूह से कभी,,

उनसे  मिलके  महसूस हुआ है,,की अब चाहत नहीं कभी...

तारीफ नहीं करते हैं हम कभी उनकी,,

मगर ये दिल पता नहीं क्यों उसनके हसने पे ही खुश होता हैं...

रात अब सुनी-सुनी रहती हैं,,

बाहें अब अकेली ही सोती हैं...

तकियें पर अब किसी और के सर रखने का मन करता है,,

बिस्तर पर अब किसी को जकढ़ के सोने का मन करता हैं...

अब ये प्यार तुझको दिखाने का मन करता हैं,,

अब तेरे बगैर जीने का बिलकुल मन नहीं करता है...

आ जाओ एक बार तुम ,अब जाने नहीं दूंगा,,

इस बार खुद को अपने से हारने नहीं दूंगा...

आँखों से आंसूं का एक मोती गिरता है,,
उस देख के न जाने क्यों ये दिल हसता है...

प्यार किया था शायद इसकी सजा है,,
अब ये दिल हमेशा यही कहता है...

चाहत कुछ बेगानी सी,,कुछ अनजानी सी,,
प्यार सी,,मगर  हैं किसी और के सपने को सजाने की...
किसी और के सपने को सजाने की.....,...................

mujhko tarashne vala...

मैं जिन आँखों से सबको तराशता हु,,

खूबसूरती से पलकों की छाँव से,,

क्या दुनिया में है कोई मुझको तराशने वाला,,

मुझको परखने वाला,,

मुझको समझने वाला,,

अब इन्तेजार की छाँव ढल चुकी है,,

परछाई अब शरीर  से मिल चुकी है,,

ये रत अपनी खूबसूरती की एक झलक दिखा चुकी है,,

इन्तेजार की हर कसौटी अब बंध चुकी है,,

रस्ते अब थम चुके है,,

मिलन की बेला अब आई है,,

तेरी मुझे याद बहुत आई है....

मिलेंगे फिर बताय्नेगे,,की क्या क्या कमी छाई है,,

रोते थे हस्ते भी थे,,ये एक नयी धुन सी बनायीं है,,

प्यार हुआ ,,इकरार भी हुआ,ये भी एक काल्पनिक सी छवि बनायीं है,,

कोई तो हो मुझको तराशने वाला,,ये सोच के ये नयी कविता बनायीं है..

मैं जिन आँखों से सबको तराशता हु,,

खूबसूरती से पलकों की छाँव से,,

क्या दुनिया में है कोई मुझको तराशने वाला,,

मुझको परखने वाला,,

मुझको समझने वाला,,

Conversation with the God...

There are many persons around me who always asks God for everything they are facing in their life. And they think sometimes God help them and sometime they blames Him for everything. Some  people told this world that they talked to the God and God answered all the questions what they ask. And in this bewildering, i think that is it really right ?  And sometimes on this matter, i fought with a friend of my Best Friend. She has only a single point that God never did anything wrong and i have  a point that sometime He did wrong. and this argument has never to be finished as she know and as I know. But i know one thing and from then I believed her talkings that really God never do anything wrong, everything is planned for every perfect happening across this world.
                                           And i used to see many friends blaming and cursing Him, that He doesn't give this thing, that girl, that job, etc..etc...
                        Since I doesn't get my love whom i loved the most in my life, and i have no worry either she is in my life or not.And i have only one work to love her, unconditionally.
                                     One night I have a dream, in which i realized that God came to me and told His all situations as :
God: Why this world doesn't understand as I cared a lot and I created this world for Him, but Why they don't get happy?
me: Ofcourse God,  This world is created by you, but these rules are created by the belongings of this world. and everyone is maintaining his/her rules to get the maximum happiness, but sometimes they don't realize your existence,and so everything as they want. Because some times they got busy in getting those things which you make more beautiful than they are, they don't see the beauty of innerself they see the beauty of those objects which you crafted more beautifully and they thought that by getting those beautiful objects they are happiest in the world but sometimes they will be happy but more oftenly they doesn't get any happiness.

God: Then what did i do that they will be happy always that i want to be when i created this world.
me: Don't do anything, but wait and watch, you also created the beautiful aspect of the life is Time and time heels everything and it give everything to the proper person at the proper time, so don't worry God, you really created the beautiful world so enjoy it and don't worry about it.

God: Do you believe that I am in the temple(idols) , mosque, and churches,and all. and if it is so, then some people come to me and some don't come to me then how can i judge everyone that who is loyal to me and who are not?  and How can i available to everyone? i am really confused about it.
me: Oh, God you are such a great creator and you are thinking this, everybody knows that you are omnipresent and they really rely on this, Existence doesn't understand by the proof of doing anything, It can only be felt that is why when anyone hears the voice coming from temples( bells), mosque and churches and all then that person wither stood on that place for a single second or even he think of you for a single second because he know that you are present around him and either he believe you or not, but he know one thing that some energy is flowing him and he know that you are around him and watching him and see his doings.
         and then they feel you even they feel you for a single second, He forgets all his belongings in this world for that single second, and you well aware know of that if any person forgets his belongings then there is no difference between you and him.
            Either they come or not to your place, but everyone know that you are always with them.And everyone is loyal to you, you are the only one in this world whom they loyal, even if they loyal for the single second of their whole life, some persons loyal to you for the whole life and some are loyal to you for a single second, either they loyal to you at the birth time or at the death time , but it is confirmed that they are loyal to you.
             Feel the belongings that you have with your creations then you realized that you are always available with them.

God: Every person come to me and and told their stories but seeing them i think that they all in love and i puzzled about my creations that what is Love?
me: you created the most beautiful think in this life i.e. LOVE, and when some one has the feeling for someone  impartially, impatiently and unconditionally then he is in true love, he doesn't say that he fall in love , he have only one statement , that I am growing with my love,because love for those is like the breathing and they never  live their life without love and they make their life as like as a mirror as a translucent love.

God: They why the cried about the love and i see that many of persons have many loves for alternate time and
they are changing their partners as the time changes, then do they play with the Love?
me: No, God they don't play with their love, they don't understand the meaning of love,Love has many types and some times they love the physical charm of your creations, but they realized the meaning of love when they really got the real one.And you always take care of us and always guides to get the real one. and from the side of this whole world, I thanked you for everything.

God: Thanks, but tell me one thing more, then you doesn't get your love, then this thing doesn't disturb you?
me: Ofcourse not, because i am growing with my love, and as my life grows my love for her is increasing day by day unconditionally, and this give me a strength that my life is self satisfied with my unconditional love. My work is to love her, i don't wanna to get the same warmth of love as i love her. Because if i expects same thing from her, then it terms to be a selfish and sometimes expectation kills the true feeling of the heart. And i am proud of myself that my love is unconditional and my love termed to be love without expectations.

God: Last question, You took all the pain with your beautiful smile, Why don't you get hurt?
me: ( Laughed little bit...) No gain without pain, this line is made by you, similarly if you don't get hurt, then you are not in love, you can only be hurt when you are in true love, and this makes me happier more than the happiest person in this world that i am a true loves as you are with your creations.

God: I am impressed with you, do you want anything from me?
me: thanks God, but i know one thing also that the statements made by me in front of you are only created when you want, and thank God for this to speak out these beautiful sentence from my mouth, and if you really want to give my anything, then please care of all those who either belong to me or not belong to me. Please take care of my life. And I love you God, that you give me the real feelings of unconditional love. thanks for everything.
God: Thank to you also,, next time we will again meet,, byeee and take care of you tell the next meeting.
me: ofcourse God.

and my dream broke at that time, and i shared all the conversations of me with the God, and i am waiting for the next meeting with the God, and it is the best meeting that i have ever spent in my life..
Thanks to someone special who is not in my life, but because of her, today i realized the definition of love...Love you...

मेरे अश्क...

मेरे अश्क यूँ नहीं बह रहे,,ये डर रहे है,
की जो हाथ थामा हुआ है तुमने बड़े प्यार से जो,,
वो कितने पलों के लिए किसी के दिल की धड़कन को चला रह है,,,


ये आज खुश है,,तुझे देख कर एक बार फिर,,,
महसूस करके भी,,जब तू इसके पास भी न है फिर भी,,
तुझे ही देख की क्यों मुस्कान कह रहे है,,


समझे न तू भी इसका इन्हें कोई फर्क नहीं पड़ता है,,
ये तो बस अपने प्यार जो तुझसे कभी बयान नहीं कर पाए,,
उसको झलका रहे है है जैसे की इनको कभी न देख पाए तू कभी,,

होता है इनको भी दर्द वैसे,,कहते नहीं है तुझसे कभी,,
तेरी न को बार-बार सुन के,भी हाँ समझने की भूल किये जा रहे है,,,
मोहबत क्या है,,ये पागल नमकीन के पानी में क्या औकात जो समझे,,
समझते तो पल है,,जो महसूस करते है इनके दर्द को बड़े प्यार से ,,
झलकती है उनकी भी निगाहें,,की वो कुछ भी नहीं कर सकते,,
रोते है,,फिर हस्ते है,,और फिर वाही बात बार कह जा रहे है,,

जब जानते थे जवाब उनका ,,तो क्यों फिर उसके लिए ही बहे जा रहे  है,
जब जानते थे जवाब उनका,,तो क्यों फिर उसके लिए ही बहे  जा रहे  है..

रूह मेरी तेरे से कभी अलग न थी, ये हर सांस मेरी मेरे जज्बात बयां करते है,,
तू है दूर ,फिर भी,,तेरी हर साँसों का ये हर एक हिसाब किये जा रहे हैं,,


पहचाने तू इन्हें,,या न पहचाने कभी इनको,,
न जाने ये क्यों तुझको ही अपना सारा अवाम समझे जा रहे हैं,,


खुली किताब से है मेरे ये अश्क,फिर न जाने क्यों लोग इनको एक जाल समझते है,,
ये तो तेरी साँसों की धीमी-धीमी ख़ामोशी जाने गी,,की ये तुझसे कितना प्यार किये जा रहे है,


मैं हुईं तो तेरा एक आशिक,,,तेरे मना करने से मैंने कहना छोड़ दिया है,,
न जाने क्यों मेरे अश्क इस बात को न समझते है,,,
और न जाने क्यों तेरी तस्वीर देख के हर बार,
ये फिर से एक बार झलकते है,,ये जाने क्यों ये एक फिर से झलकते है,,


सब्र रखूँगा तेरे आने का अपनी जिंदगी में एक दिन,,
शायद मेरे अश्कों भी है,,,इन पर फक्र है एक दिन,,
की तू समझेगी,इनको,और संभाल लेगी अपने लबों से इन्हें,,,
की इनका अस्तित्व जिस समंदर को पाने के लिए चला था,,
करीब से आज वो पूरा हो गया,,आज  लक्ष्य  उनका है एक दिन...
पूरा हो गया लक्ष्य उनका एक दिन...

My first GDPI experience at MBE..

As finally reached Delhi University ( South Campus ) , by using the Airport Metro Link, reached Dhaula Kuan, and then Satya Niketan Bus stop. So I think that campus is far away from Bus stop and i asked the auto but really auto seeing me as a person weared a corporate suit and a fastrack goggles, and he uttered his mouth, "  Sir, i will hire only 200 rupees.  (Sir ji 200 hundred rupees lagenge..). " And unluckily i made my mind to give him 200 rupees, but luckily with the grace of Guruji, a nice person stood over there, told me Delhi University, South Campus is just one kilometer ahead, so you are a young guy, you will reach there by walk itself. By hearing this, auto person turned his eyes opposite to me, and my purse thanked me that i didn't destroy its wealth.

               At last I reached there, And i asked about the Arts building and security guard show me the way, and finally i reached the Arts building and see the competitors and they are really handsome and a personality which is far good than me ( this statement really gives a pain ). Then I searched the room of Room No : 9 and finally wait there and as i am started my talkings with the other guy sitting beside me, and i asked him, " Which group ?"  He replied in a serious tone, " Group 11".and started reading again the most hilarios and boring newspaper by my side, The Financial Times.
                                            Again i turned to different guy, and asked the same question, and he replied in a same tone, " Group 9" and i replied in a funny note, " my group is same" I don't understand one thing that why are they tense? I have also an interview but i am not tensed as they had. And it is only call for me for MBE and not any other top25 college called me for any GDPI, and they had minimum five to seven calls.Someone came from Banaras because they had an interview two days earlier,some had calls for IITs, and they took holidays from their companies like Infosys, Wipro, TCS, and Hp, etc,,,etc.. But i am not tensed as they are. but i started to converse with different guy and ask their experiences in their respective companies and their GDPIs...
                  Then we filled up all forms, and surprisingly only seven out of 12 are coming for attending GDPI, honestly say, this is the good news for me, and same for the other candidates. And  a great surprise is also ahead, one madam asked the Group 9 and took us in a different room, and told us, that you had interview first, And this really shocks us, i am the second one in a group. and Ashish went first, number one in my group. and i am going for the third panel, and Akansha of my group and only girl in my group, is waiting beside me for the other panel. One student is running over there and when he see me and told me that Don't tense, everything will be OK, you will rock, and then i realized that i am taking tension also. and she one surprises over there that Akansha is also laughing but her stepping towards the floor and rubbing hands show that she is also taking tension.
                                            Ashish is emerging out, and when i asked what happen , he smiled and told me ,,nice interview. I replied in affirmative and somehow tensed  note Ok. And one person is emerging out from that room, and asked me come in. and i went there with my opened files which contain all my certificates and all. And I told them in a smiled way, " Sir, Good Afternoon!"
they are three in number , two are sitting in front of me, and one is sitting beside me in  a single sofa, and he seems to be sleeping.
Person 1(P1): good afternoon abhishek, do you know a guy in bollywood has a name as like you, do u knoe him?
me: yes sir, i know him , He is Abhishek Bachan .
P1: then corelate you with him.
me: sir 1- He is Abhishek Bachan and i am Abhishek Maurya,
           2- He serious and i am also serious about our work ,
           3- He has a great determination and i too sir,
           4- In  a funny style, he is great fan of Aishwarya, and i too,
Person 2(P2) : but she is the wife of Abhishek Bachanm and you are not.
me: Sir I know this but in starting he is a great fan of her.
P2: Ok,
me: 5- He also belongs to the UP and me too sir,
P1: Corealte with the pros cons of yourself with him and negative and positive circumstances with you and him,
P2: you are an engineer student so you don't understand what do we want to say, so abhishek, tell me one thing which one you want to change in your life?
me: Sir, i have over-passionate energy for my work sometime and i want to lower down in a controlled manner.
P2: But do you want to change it,
P1: Do you got any harm by this?
me: sir, when i writing my papers in exams, so when i wrote last questions of exams then i have a great energy at that time and seamlessly my presentation about everything is good, but due to excited state, my presentation is not as good as  first question and due ti this sometime i lost marks.
( i know this is the answer that showed my weakness and in the same questions and answers person 3 is never speak out a single word and he seems to be sleeping but when i answered the question then i answered all the three person, don't answered the question to the single one)
P1: It means that you are a good presenter, how can you proof?
me: sir, my marks are the proof of it, i got 76.32% marks aggregate, and i think that it is only because of my percentage, when you are not good with your way of presentation of you writing then you don't got good marks.
P2: ok abhishek, tell me about youself as Career Launcher told about you that you will told this this to panels.
me: Career Launcher?
P1: IMS, TIME anybody tell you,
P2: Ok ,leave it, tell me about yourself,
me: My name is Abhishek Maurya, and blah blah,,and in last i told him that as came from  the city where i don't know how to access internet, but i choose the information technology branch which is totally dependent on the advancement of technologies and internet, and i really learned from it, and i learned over my subject like Cloud Computing,etc etc,,( as third person hear the word Cloud Computing he awake as a hilarious master)
Person 3(P3): Then what is cloud computing?
me: sir let us take an example, you have an mobile whose internal memory is 180 MB, and you have an external memory of 2GB,  but do want to access the data of 4GB and this extra 2 GB, you want to use for today and it has no use tomorrow,
P3: ( In frustated mood,) Is this Cloud Cmputing?
P2: sir, he is only making the background by which we understand what is cloud computing?
me: ( as seen the matter is clear..) and you increase your memory by renting 2 GB memory for today , and similarly as the cloud computing is, Pay As you want, not to buy the external memory for permanent just rent it, and when you are used off, then leave it. And again i tell him the two examples of cloud computing.
P3: then what is mobile computing?
me: I answered not to him personally , but to all and i think that they understand it .
P3: ( he starting the questionnaire with me and aske as many question as he want, and i give all the answeer of him) what is the difference between cloud computing and mobile computing?
what is the difference between Mobile OS and Desktop OS?
what is the difference between Mobile OD and Apple Mac?
what is the difference between Mobile system , a satelliete and a walky-talkie?
( person three is just asking all one- one on me and asked many questions...)
P2: Abhishek, i don't understand why do you want to do Business economics after your technical degree, and hows it help you?
me: Sir, Management and Techincal things running parallely, and if you are lacking behind in any one thing then you will be a failure, and these techincal things will help me making in decisions, If I do MBE then i want to be in a marketing anylyst, then if i have to invest in some major comapnies like Infosys, then i have to know that which technology they will be adopting in future and what will be their benefits and losses, and by reading this i invested my money and my clients money regarding to that company.
P2: I don't understand what do you want to say?  and  this is also told by a broker Mr.X without doing his B.Tech and what is the difference between you and him.
me: sir, but he is not sure about the profits and losses, Mr. X is just tell the some days earlier profits of that company and seeing the graphs of growth , he told you to invest in that company.
P2: again I don't understand  you, let I want to invest in Tata Steel and a software company like Infosys, then how can you manage?
me: Sir, first i read the sector they are working on, and in future what new technologies they will be preferred like Tata Steel is a manufacturing company, and if they use the Six Sigma technology then it will .....(person three interrupt in my answer)
P3: What is 6 Sigma?
me: i am answering my question,( again he interrupt..)
P3: why 6 is placing there?
me: i am answering my question blah blah,,,and as i reached to the final statement..
P1: what is Sigma there?
me: I told them
P2: which one is Pink newspaper?
me: i don't know sir,
P2: which newspaper do you read?
me: sir Hindu.
P2: which colour it is?
me: sir white.
P2: don't you see the pink newspaper?
me: Ok ,sir, its economic times and financial times.
P3: why is is pink so?
me: i answered them, but i know it is the wrong answer.
P1: tell me abhishek, five countries of america?
me: sir, i don't know,
P1: tell me five countries of Africa which doesn't play Cricket?
me: i don't know sir (in a smiling face)
P1: Ok, then tell me who is Angelina Markowny,
me: again, i don't know sir..
P1: ok, abhishek, thank you ,you may go now.
me: thank you sir.
and i left that room. and i think that it is a stressed interview because this all happened to me within 25-30 minutes and my interview is the time taking because some of my group member told me that they had finished their interview within 10 minutes.
and when i returned to my room , then everybody asked me what happened?
and i told them all the questions and surprisingly these are the exceptions for them and they even dnt know the answer, and i think that  why don't they ask the Golden question That WHY MBE? which is ever prepared by me within two hours.
and when my whole group finished with their interview, then the same ma'am told us that go with that boy and when you all finished with your GD youe whole process will be terminated and thank you.
And we went along with that boy, and we see the GD ma'am she is looking nice and an experience one,and told us about all the process, that first introduction within 2 minutes, and then sir told us the topic and then 5 minutes think over it, and then dscussion over it, and then conclusion in a single statement.
Ma'am pointed over Ashish, and i don't know why ashish is stammering , he is cool guy, and ma'am pointed to me, that you will start, Ashish at the end, and i give an intro about myself and then at last i tell him about my hobby that i wrote blogs which are availabe at mauryaabhishek.blogspot.com
Ma'am asked, what do you write?
ma'am i wrote poetries and articles.
" from the morning i see many of you are writing the poetries and justify you all colleagues and justify to all those who told me that they are writnig, and it is big responsibility on you."
" Thanx ma'am for giving me a chance to justify me and all my colleagues."
and i write my best poem and my favourite one Lakshya and they really like and ma'am make a small clap for me, and just after introduction GD started and i initiate the GD, and everyone is awesome in my group and every points of every person is awesome,
Sorry i forget to tell the topic, topic is  BRAIN DRAIN SHOULD BE STOPPED.
and Akansha is only one who is against us but she is awesome in her points and our GD is finished, we don't make any fish market and we moved from there..
and we walk and enjoy the canteen and made awesome friends over there...
let us see what will happen in the result hope for the best...thanks God giving me such a wonderful chance and thanks Guruji who make me confidence during the whole process.....
All the best who is reading my blog for their preparation,....