Why these emotions!!!!!!

I never understand about emotions anywhere in the world. But I feel the some things that always secreated from my sidely livelihoods, hope those are emotions. If I ask about emotions to this hilarious world,then many of us say that these are the feelings of heart. And as always I laughed on them . If any person has no heart then he had no emotions. But really they are true, they are truth to themselves, but actually emotions are only understand of other only when you are also in the situation of these emotions.

                   Today I feel the emotions of my heart,and also of someone special, In morning ,or from  last two week, I remember the name of that person whom I want to forget. In the morning, when I get up, I feel the name of her, and say good morning to her. And everytime, I remember her all of the day. And At every moment of remember her, I tried to forget her. But I know that this is not possible for  me. So why these emotions always comes to my heart, when there is no feeling between her and me. And we broke our relationship. And both of us decided not to meet in future ,and except also that we never talk in this life. Wow!!!!! Is it really possible? Because this is done between six to seven time.

                                    But the main aspect of this blog is that emotions why comes to our life,and why we feel that our emotions is not understood by others. Why we feel that our emotions are superior in this world? The main reason of our problem is that we don’t understand the emotions of others. And this line is difficult to understand. But the cause of dispute is actually that we don’t understand the feeling of others and emotions of others. Because of our only ego. Because we treat our emotions and feeling superior to others.

                                        I understand the feeling of that person who is my love but her love is someone else, because of not that she is my love, because of that the condition of both are same. but in a slight a little bit difference that her love loved her too much and my love never loved me.

                              But the main aspect is this that we are selfish, we are obassionate, we are mad, we are culprit, we are all the worse person in our life ..because we have not a feeling to understand others. We are totally giving important to us only, that we are the best in our world, and this feeling always pushes us to be down in our dignity, and we always underestimate it.

                                                     So morally, first understand the emotion of others, by saying that I'm loving myself, this is the sentence that we are always saying to be happy with myself. But this is the sentence by which we want to underestimate the others, So please understand the emotion of other trully, I don't say that underestimate ourself,but sometime by helping others the satisfaction of that is really awesome.

                               Love is the thing to spread, not to console innerself. Many has a doubt that love is only between girlfriends and boyfriends, But actully Spread love in the form of friendship,in the form of respect, in the form of worship, in the form of calmness, and many more.........

Hailstorm Rain with my GOD!!!!!!!!!!

Who said that God is not omnipresent?? Today,God himself proved that He is omnipresent. If I wrote this line then many has a problem that Do you see Him? I have only one answer for them that No, I don't see Him. But he proved His presence. How? This is being written in this blog.
                                           From one week, I only told onc fact to the God ,Please God! Change my mind,Please help me that I forget my love,She don't love me,But I don't live without love her. And I never ask for my love to the God. But I always want one thing that She always remain happy. From last week I only ask that thing,and other thing which I ask from my childhood. And I feel that he smiled on me,and as always I ignore His smiling. But today He showed me the reason of smiling.
                                                Today,on returning to home,The rain is so heavy that it also flourishes the hailstorm,I also ignored this. But when I am on the way of returning home,I see the famous temple,where I used to go.God smiled on me. Then he answered my questions,with sweet smile. You always told me the one thing earlier before this week that God ,Do one thing that I forget everything in my life but Please never forget me the name of my life and my love for her. And you told this thing always when you meet me. And with pure heart.
                                      God again asked me the one thing,then actually what demand I completed of yours? The demand you asked always when you meet me that never decrease my love for her with pure heart or the demand you wish from the last week with agony and with tears in your eyes.
                                            I have no answer of the question of God. He then smilingly asked me, Enjoy your rain,You know why I show this heavy rain to you? I know, but I denied Him. He told me that when the rain is coming to your life,you always remember the one face. You want to forget that face who always give you smile. I know that he also give you tears also ,but Do you actually want her departure? I told Him that I love her,but what can I do? She don't love  me, and with the hateness of her,How I live? First time,He dn smiled in my conversation,but he silently put His hand on my forehead,and told me,I know that She don't love you. But what is the real love? I also don''t get the love of mine. I'm GOD,and I don't get the love of mine.Then think that too.
                                       But Mylove for her is known to all. So what do you want?
                                                              I told him that in this heavy rain, always she called me,but Do u see that today she didn't call me. He calmed my anger,and told me that always be mine,and always love  her,don't ask love from anyone. You are the luckyone that you are capable of doing love, you are the one who sacrifices many thing for her. So always be happy in that.........And He told me BYE!!!!! and LOVE YOU!!!! So please spread the love.......
                                             I realized that He completed my that wish of never forgeting my love,And I'm happy with His decision,And by this incident I feel the existence of God. And I know one fact also that I love the girl who never be of mine in my life,but my love is always for her in my life. She don't love me in my life,But I love her all the lifes of my life. So God Thanx for advice and thanx for keeping and fulfilling my first wish. Love you my God and love to my love who is not mine........

Ajnabiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी,
क्यों सोचता है कि वो कर नहीं पाया जो,
दूसरा कर चूका है व्ही,
आज बता दे तू अजनबी,

क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी....

जिंदगी कि गहरो में,
समुन्दर कि लहरों में,
हम कहाँ है,वहां क्यों नहीं,
समझ नहीं पाया मैं, ऐ अजनबी,
आज बता दे तू अजनबी.

क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी.....

जिंदगी की नाव में,
दिशाहीन समुद्र की चाल में,
बस खेता जा रहा हुईं मैं,

लक्ष्य हैं कहाँ मेरा,
बस यही सोचता रहता हूँ में,
क्यों रोता हूँ मैं,
क्यों बौक्लाता हुईं मैं,
आज बता दे तू अजनबी,

क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी......

क्यों एक कुथ्पुटली के सामान,
जिए जा रहा हूँ मैं,
क्यों एक कटी पतंग के सामान,
उड़ता जा रहा हूँ मैं,
आज बता दे तू अजनबी,

क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी.....

बिना साहिल के मैं,
किनारे से मिला जा रहा हूँ मैं,
क्यों इस बारिश में भी,
प्यासा रहा जा रहा हुईं मैं,
आज बता दे तू अजनबी,

क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी.....

क्या करूँ मैं,ये मुझको पता नहीं,
उलझन हो जाये दूर मेरी,
कुछ बता दे ,ऐ अजनबी,
एक रौशनी दिखा दे,ऐ अजनबी,
आज बता दे तू अजनबी,

क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी.....

किसको बताऊँ की क्या उलझन हैं मेरी,
किसको कहूँ की क्या दर्द है मेरा,
दुनिया से अब डर लगता है मुझको,
अब बता दे की क्या करूँ,ऐ अजनबी

क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी.....

क्या करूँ मैं इन परिस्थितियों में,
फिर मरुँ,या फिर जी के मरू,
क्योंकि जीना नहीं है मेरी जिंदगी,
या फिर बन जाऊं,
दुनिया के लिए तेरा जैसा,
एक अजनबी,एक अजनबी......

आज बता दे तू अजनबी,
क्यों किसी के खयालो जैसी नहीं बनती जिंदगी!!!!!!!!!

KYA KAHIYEGA!!!!!

उस दर्द के आलम को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसमे आंसुओं को अश्को तक आने में,
सौ बार सोचना पड़ता है.......

उस प्यार को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसको साबित करने के लिए,
हमे बार बार मरना पड़ता है.....

उस मंजिल को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसको पाने के लिए हमे,
हमेशा बार बार गलत रास्तों में चलना पड़ता है.....

उस बेवफा को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसको बेवफा कहने से पहले,
हमे बार बार रोना पड़ता है......

उस दिल के टुकड़े को क्या कहियेगा,
जो दिल का अहेम बन ने से पहले,
मुझको उसे जख्म देना पड़ता है.....

उस कातिल को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसको कतल करने से पहले,
खुद को ख़तम करना पड़ता है.....

उस मुहब्बत को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसको दुनिया को दिखने से पहले,
अपने प्यार कि इजाजत लेना पड़ता है....

उस दुश्मनी को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसको दिखाने के लिए,
हमे किसी और को दर्द देना पड़ता है.....

उस आईने को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसमे अपने अक्स को देखने से पहले,
दुसरे अक्स को देखना पड़ता है.....

इस दुनिया को क्या कहियेगा,
जिसको दुसरे कि ख़ुशी को बर्बाद करने के लिए,
अपनी ख़ुशी बर्बाद करनी पड़ती है,
अपनी ख़ुशी बर्बाद करनी पड़ती है.......


(to be continued........)

True lovers always love true beauty!!!!!

Many writers and poet from all over the world,told about the true beauty. Some of few wrote many books and some of those wrote lines by lines....I read one of the famous pote lines,"True Beauty" By Thomas Crew. And these lines are superior also when these lines are told by the hottest and prettyist,or in my school it is also famous for that teacher,"Miss sweetberry!!!". Those who are from the sacred heart understand my feelings.Ya I am writing about my pinkish teacher. But I have a different attitude for all writers and poets.
                                              Everyone Told about the true beauty and in moral everyone has common lines that In age this beauty vanishes,and second famous line that see the inner beauty.. But no one told that How to judge the true beauty!!. How should I know that the person whom I loved,has true beauty? This is a best question for each and every lover. And it is also a good question of generation lover who are searching for the true love..
                                           In the college days lovers wind is flowing so sweetly,that everyone want one girl whom they loved. But how many are in the relationship is continue after cllege life? If we surceyed this policy then only 1-2 % are successful,and what they deeds in their relationship.It is well known to us. And in those time it is good for them.
                                            But why they don't continue their relationship? And I'm  so hurt that because of them some true love relationship don't want to fall in love truly. But I am sure that True lovers always love true beauty. But how can we judge? This is tried by me. Ask whether it is our crush our true love.
                                   This is answered by only one answer,Can you imagine to live with her till you died.And do want to thar girl is the mother of your chid? Is she is the better option of your wife?Is it the best mother for your child? And most important question Is the better daughter-in -law of your parents? And if these are true. Then your relationship is in true relationship,and in the future You have no problem. 
                                                       But the fact is that How we judge the person that he/she is write for us.?I have a crush for her or not. This is only by one experiment that I tried with me. Don't be in relationship as long as possible. I tried this for 6 months,I don't talk a single word to her.and in this mean time,there are many girls coming around me,and I am talking to them  as nice as I can. Always try to forget the person whom you loved most.And if you are successful in this attempt,then congrats you are in crush and you don't love the true beauty,and If you fail in these attempt,and you don't want any girl except her,then You loved true beauty. I know this is a false wxperimwnt but if you follow with a real heart,then you got succceded. 
                                                       Always ask a single queston to your heart," Do you want that girl as life partner? Can she is the one who is always stand beside you when you fallen from the moral pressure? Can she is the right ine who always takes care for you? " These are the simpler question as in seen,but there meaning is so tough that only undersand by that person who ask these question to his heart honestly. And I asked these question and I got the answer from my heart that Yes she is the that girl who always cares for me,she is the right mother and caring mother of my child,And she is dedicated to me after marriage....
                                            So thats why I love her.And I'm successful in my attempt that I have no crush for her,because she is so the prettist girl for me in the world,and I congratulated me that I don't love her lovely cheeks,I don't love her the face of her,And I don't love her the pinkish lips,I don't love the sweet smile,I don't love the beautify eyes of her," don't love the lovely face.I only love the girl as my future wife.I love the mother of my future childs,and this is in my hand  to show my love to her as a responsibilty to my wife. 
                                                     And I thank to GOD that she give me the feeling to judge that I love true beauty of my love not the false looking of my love..........Thanx GOD again that I love true beauty which is forever in my love.......And I proved the line that TRUE LOVERS ALWAYS LOVE TRUE BEAUTY!!!!!!   

Tum hi tum......Sirf tum....

मेरी जिंदगी भी तुम,मेरी हर सांस में तुम,
मेरे इश्क में तुम,मेरी हर कसक में तुम,

मेरी हर दिल कि धधकन में तुम,
मेरी जुस्तुजू भी है तू,
मेरी हर याद में तुम,

मेरी हर फिक्र है तू,
मेरी हर बात में तुम,

मेरी हर तन्हाई के पल में तू,
मेरी रंगमंच में तुम,

जिन्दा रहने वाली सांसों में तू,
मेरी कब्र के हर जर्रे में तुम,

मेरा खुदा भी है तू,
मेरे इश्वर के दर्पण में तुम,

मेरे सबसे करीब है तू,
मेरे दूरियों में भी तुम,

तुम ही तुम और सिर्फ तुम,
जिंदगी के हर पल में तुम,

मेरी नमाज है तू,
मेरे हर इस्तकबाल में तुम,

मेरी आँखों का हर दर्श है तू,
मेरे लफ्जों में सिर्फ तुम,

मेरी मस्जिद का हर सेना है तू,
मेरे मंदिर कि हर मूर्ति में तुम,

मेरी हर ख़ुशी है तू,
मेरे हर गम में तुम,

मेरी हर उलझन का फयम है तू,
मेरी हर सुलझन का नजराने में तुम,

तुम ही तुम...सिर्फ तुम.....
इस जिंदगी के हर पल में तुम......

(to be continued....)

Aapka sath.......

राहें तो खुश्गुमार हो जाती,
अगर आपका साथ हमारे साथ होता,
ये जिंदगी भी थोडा हस लेती,
अगर आपका हाथ हमारे हाथ में होता......

तुम मिलो तो सही,बताएँगे तुमको,
कि क्या जिंदगी होती और क्या हमारा प्यार होता,
सिर्फ ख़ुशी ही मिलती तुमको,ये वादा हमारा होता,
न झलकता तेरी पलकों में एक आंसूं,
अगर साथ आपका हमारे साथ होता.....


तड़पती न तुमभी, न तड़पते भी हमभी,
खुशियाँ ही होती ,सिर्फ खुशियाँ ही होती,
प्यार से ज्यादा कुछ न होता,
ये राहें भी अपने होते,और ये दुनिया भी अपनी होती....
अगर तुम साथ होते,,,
अगर तुम साथ होते.......

(to be continued...in aapka sath.....)

Aks.....

तेरी आँखें देखकर ये क्यों लगता है,
कि वो सिर्फ बनी हैं मेरे लिए,
ये तनहा दिल मेरा कहता है,
अक्स देखता हूँ मैं अपना,
तेरी इन निगाहों में,
इसलिए कह सकता हूँ,
कि ये सिर्फ मेरे लिए तनहा रहता है.......

रोती है मेरी आँखें जब,
अक्स मेरा भी रोता है,
आँखों में तेरी भी,
ये आंसूं भी कभी-कभी बहता है....

जान के भी न रोता हुईं मैं,
क्योंकि डर ये मुझको लगता है,
कि मालूम हैं ये इनको भी,
कि दर्द तुझको भी होता है.....


प्यार ये तुझको करती है,
ये जानता दिल मेरा भी है,
तब भी तड़पता है ये दिल मेरा,
कि  बस सुनने को तरसता है......
कि बस सुनने को तरसता है!!!!!!

(to be continued....in mera aks......)

Tum hamare kya ho????

तुम हमारे क्या हो,ये हमको जना न है,
हमारे बीच क्या रिश्ता है,ये हमको पता न है,
मगर दर्द जब होता है इस दिल में,
याद ये तझको सिर्फ करता है,
आंसूं जब ये निकलते हैं,
तो नाम ये तेरा ही क्यों लेते है,
नाम ये तेरा ही क्यों लेते हैं!!


तुम हमारे क्या हो.........


खोकर मैं जब खोता हू,
तुझको सिर्फ मैं क्यों देखता हूँ,
क्या अंजुमन में दिल है मेरा,
तेरे नाम से ही ये दिल क्यों धधकता है,
तेरे नाम से ही ये दिल क्यों धधकता है!!!


तुम हमारे क्या हो......


जब होता हूँ अँधेरे में,
अँधेरा भी तेरा ही नाम लिखता है,
रौशनी भी तेरे हर जगह hone का,
सबूत क्यों देता है,
सबूत क्यों देता है!!!!


तुम हमारे क्या हो.....

तारीफ़ न होती मुझसे तेरी,
तो क्या करूँ मैं,ये मुझसे न होता है,
बस तेरे लिया सब कुछ है मेरा,
अंत में ये दिल मेरा कहता है,
अंत में ये दिल मेरा कहता है!!!

तुम हमारे क्या हो.....


जान भी अगर चली गयी मेरी,
रूह मेरी भी तड़पेगी,
तेरी रूह को पाने के लिए,
ये सौ जनम भी तरसेगी.
ये सौ जनम और तरसेगी!!!!


तुम हमारे क्या हो,ये हमको जना न है,
हमारे बीच क्या रिश्ता है,ये हमको पता न है!!!!!

Sacrifice!!!!!!

Can anyone suggest who gave more sacrifice for us? This question has only nine words, but its significance for the life is not completed by us. I ask this question to many one but they have many answer. When I ask this question on my Facebook account,then most of my friends told that you,girlfriend and your friends. But they don't understand the real sacrifice mean thats why they told this thing. Actually If we see in our life from birth to till now,we seem one thing most important that Only our mother is present to see our drawbacks and need as we always used to want from the birth.
                                                         Really she is tho only person in our life who give sacrifice many times,as in every steps of our life. But we denied those sacrifices as say that ," This is her responsibility,thats why she did for us". But did we did the same thing for her. In reality,in the fast life of this world ,or we can say that in the cut-head competition, no one looks for his/her mother.
                                                                                       I have a example, when a plant goes rise up,and if we don't give water and pesticides to it,then it does not flourishes. And in the similar way if our mother don't give us the love and kindness of her,then we are not at this stage. And a also keen fact is emerging from that if time of water is not suitable then it also not flourishes, similar is the case if she don't give us the real love and kindness from our birth,then we don't flourishes at as present. So Why we don't love our parents from the maturity age. We just only said some foolish facts that ::
                  1: Wait first we grown up,then love our parents. How we love at this age!!!!!
                  2: When we grown up, then wait first we earned money then we love our parents How can we love our parents without money!!!!!
                 3: When we earned money,then we say that Wait first we made status then love our parents, Do our parents love us that the status of our is not better!!!!!!
                 4: And when we made also status, then we say that Mom and Daddy what do you want? Are you not happy with me!!!!
                                   and in these circumstances mom and dad waiting for our love. They don't want the money,the status,They only want some love and some respect from us. And in completeing our desire,we forget them. How are the cheatful we are???
                                                    So I want one promise to all my blogreader that from today we love them as we love our future. Because if we reach to our goal and they are not present in that goal point, then there is not the need of reaching to that goal. Our life is worse without them. So I promise from today that we love our parents as we love ourselves. Mummy And Papa,I love you.........
              
( if you like this blog then please read the blog AGAR TUM NA HOTI blog in my list.......)

                                                        

Deaths around me!!!!!

Today may be the deaths day,because I heard of three death who are linked to my life in any way whom I don't know. But these deaths are different. Everybody said that after death,everyone got Hail or Heaven.  But Can anyone will go to other side other than these. From my views,After death Person also go to other place beside these two place. But it is right that After death,Everyone forget him/her. And it is also written in our famous and religious book GITA that,"Nainam chindanti sastrani nainam dahati pavaka iti hrdayaya namah!! Na cainam kledayantyapo na sosayati maruta iti sirase svaha!! Acchedyo yamakledyo s osya eve ceti sikhayai vasat!! Nityah sarvagatah sthanuracalo yam sanatana iti kavacaya hum!! Pasya me parth rupani sataso tha saharasa iti netratrayaya vausat!! nanavidhani divyani nanavarnakrtini ceti astraya phat!!.."
                                                            Its only mean that Soul only change his body. So Why we said that it is going to hail or heaven. We forget the man who died,but that soul never forget the relatives. He just ignoring because of us only. It is because that it don't want to disturb the life of relative. We heared most of the time that He/She is seen on my dream,or his/her relative mostly said that it seems he/she is very close to them. They are correct because the soul always with us. We have no power to see them but we have a power to feel them. But actually we only ignoring them because we are busy in our fast life. So they also gone from our life. They also want to live with us,But we want to forget them,So it is necessary for them to search for a new body.
                                        Now these were my views. But they are emerging from my today incident. I heared three deaths today. Three were different from different view. First that a person has a hole in his heart, he got treatment and he also changed his heart. But at this rakshabandhan he went to his college and got heart attack and died after just the three months of heart transplant. His family has no words at all, because he is the only child of him. They are just mouth clocked. I have no words to say of their emotions and their feelings. But I know the significance of him to their life. It is just a medical treatment. Someone want to marry him. When I see her, I can't control my emotions because she is not weeping. And her silence told her pain and her grief about his love. Everytime when she met to me,she always told me that How many girlfriends you have? And always I told her that No. But at this time,I want to talk to her. But her silence is like killing me.
                                         Second death of my neighbour dadi. She used to taunt us when we play cricket and our ball dropped to her ground and in hurry we mostly destroy her garden. But her silence face is first seen by us. But at this time we want her voice again. But here is a different situation, everybody sit besise me that she complete her life,and her burial were seem beautifully. They organised her burial with music also. I don't understand it...
                                               Third death I heard of a daughter of famous teacher of mine. This teacher always smile and she has a keen knowledge and in short manner she is a wonderful teacher. But what had been done with her daughter? I heared from the newspaper that her daughter were died and on the case on Dowry. When I reached there,she asked me only one thing and I wept on the strong will power of her that,"Abhishek,Hows your life? And tell everything is fine with your study.!!". I always used to say thta mam Every thing is fine and its your boon for us thatswhy we are best in our study. But at this time I have no words at all. What I say to her? I kept remain silent.....
                                     What the difference in these silently deaths? One has no words to say about her loved one. And second everyone enjoy the death. And third she ask me about my life. Situation changed the person keenly, and these is best seen by me today......
                                I just only want to say that death always come to our life. But live your life as well in a way that after your death someone will never forget you...And you will always be remember by someone......Amen!!!!
                                      

The death day of my love!!!!!

Missing Someone special is a different thing,but When you missed a person who never comes to your life is really a critical thing and a painful thing. Yes I bear this pain,so I am writing this blog. She always told me one fact that if a person leave you,there is no change in the life of anyone. But If she is now in the place of mine then she knew that What the condition of a person whom love is not in his life? But I know that it is also not understood by her. Because she don't love me as I loved her.
                                                       I remember all the way in which she talk to me, I remember those days in which she wanders with me by holding my hands. But who gave me those days and who fulfills the position of her, who kept my hands in her hands,and told me that,"Abhi, leave this problem I'm with you."And  who told me this sentence ? Yes I remember her a lot. And Can anyone told me that How can I passed my life without her? May be this life is incomplete without her? 
                                                                            The significance of her in my life is not completed by anyone. But I promise her that what she demanded in her life ,I kept her promise that I fulfill all her demand whether she is not in my life. I completed all her demands as in a way that those demands all of mine. I know all the desire of her,and now these desires are of mine. And I promised to me that I need all that desire first in my life then anyother else. These deeds are of mine proved my love. Whether she died but all her talkings kept in my mind always. I wept also on that say when you died. I always come to your grave and promised on your grave that I'm always with you. And no one in this world replace you in my life.
                                                And my flowers on your grave always be new because they know that How true my love is? And they know that what the role of them in their life so they always look like as new. Because God created them to show the love ,and they know that they should be new to create and proof the love of real and true love. So they always new for me or I can say that they will be new for mine. They completed their goals of their life.and I'm the only way to them to show the real existence of them in this critical and harshful world. 
                                               The climate around you is so happy that it covers the grave of the person whose lover exist in this world but he seems that it is like a walking grave. The cloud seems be breezy that one drop of it fullfills the demanding of it. Because God created it to fall on those person who really wanted it. And you know that How much you love the rain? You always called me when you enjoyed the rain. And the love of mine is proved by these drops. So they only want to complete my love. They Always hide the Sun because they know that You hate the Sun. But Sun want to touch your grave because he also want to Complete his desire to touch the sole of that person whose lover hate the sun because of only that you hate the Sun. 
                                    When you went from my life, the World seems be wept because they know that my love is general,but my Honestly with my love is as pure as this world seems be pure,and The existence of God be pure. I  love you except you are not in my life.. ......
                                          Hope this God ask me to come to him,and my Grave would lie beside you and to fulfill and complete my love and the desireness of you in respect of mine........AMEN!!!


(to be continue......In memory of my love.....)

Moment never dies!!!!

How can I forget that night when my best friend or I can say that the person whom I loved most,is travelling with me by a Bus. When I always on a journey,she called me always and told me always one advice,"Don't see here and there.And don't see another girl." And many things. And as always I laughed at her. I'm not a child,and this is my life. I am independent to see any girl. But how this talk placed a strong place in my heart. And certainly when I'm on the journey,while it is being of one hour.I waited for a call. But it is better said  that don't make any place for any person atmost that will bring your heart be in pain. But what had been I done,because may be I love all the moments and all talks being passed with her.
                                Now she is with me. But the moment is different,we met after three months,but our friendship is as new as it starts. She started to tell me all the facts and deeds which she passed in just three months with her boyfriend or with her new friends. I told one fact easily,that you can hear all the deeds.But your heart is always weeping to hear the lovely moments of your loved ones with her love. But this is heart's pain. How I can Stop my heart to weep. And also who I am to stop your friends to tell her secrets. She understood me as her best friend,So this is my responsibility to listen all the deeds of her life. But I request to God that Please give me one moment that she listen me that how much I love her? But I know that this moment is not in my life as God forget to write that moment in my destiny.
                                                     Now time is passing,and that moments are making my life mysteryfull because in this mysterious life a person is there to listen the talking of his love,but there is no one to listen his emotions. Now she started to sing a song,and seriously she sing so well,but I always told her that you are a bad singer. I don't know why I enjoy to made funny of her? But these funny things always remembered by me. She asked me to sing and I know one fact clearly that How bad singer I am? So I told her that continue to sing,Why do you want that every passenger lift me out.She laughed at my this talk,but her laugh at my jokes(bad jokes) is not forgetten by me. May be her smile made me fall in love. She asked me that tell your favourite song,I told immediately that no one. Because that song played by her in Bus is so mischief that somebody think bad for her. So I declined her to play my favourite song. But I forget one thing that She know me also, And she sing for me bur so slowly that only I heared.
                                    I'm continuosly see into her eyes,because I know that this moment never returned back to my life. And time is passing on,and our journey is finished.  And in this whole journey there are many events in which we are only to manage our life. and there are also some moments in which she had angry with me and I used to made such kiddings that once she laughed. Because I see all things but I can't see one thing that she is upset because of mine. What done if she don't love me,the most important thing is that  I love her. And this fact made my life calm and peace in mind. Because to attain the love is different thing,and to continuously love the person who don't love you is a different thing. And many ones don't maintain it,But I'm proud of mine that I maintained my love in my life.......
                Be Happy in my LIFE without My LOVE!!!!!! Seriously moment never dies especially with your loved one.   .....The journey is being continuouly running,and I'm always with my love  in my sweet and mirror like heart......

Why she is looking at me????

If you are staring on any girl,then it is dangerous to you. But if a girl is staring on you,then what did you do? This is all happen to me. Actually I'm in a party,and as always when I'm going to any party,I'm only search in any of my friend. But at that day there is no one my friend in this party. And I'm boring there. But what I do?

                                  So there I enjoyed  D.J. And my legs are thrilling on D.J.'s music,But at unknown party,how can I dance? So controlling my emotions,I only sit on my chair. But I seem one fact immediately that someone is staring on me. I turned back and see a beautiful girl sitting behind me, firstly I ignored her.  I moved from that place to check she is looking at me or not. But I'm right that she is staring at me.

                                 I tried many times to recognise her,but I failed every time. Firstly I think that Let us ask to her why she is staring me? But in this party,if she told anyone that I'm misbehaving with her,then this is too injurious to my health. Then I always move here and there to drop out off her eyes. But time to time I always see her. So I decided that I remain still here ,why I go here and there? 

                                         After some time,She came to me,and asked ,"Do you remember me?" I told her ,"No!" She told me yes i know that from tour face,it seems that you don't recognise me. But I met you in Nanotech workshop,you are always questioning to the mentors. As soon she tell the name of  nanotech,I remember her, She is Shailja from Indore. And she want to done a project with me.But as she is far away from me,so I only gave my number. And at that time, I have no net connection. But she asked me firstly,hows your research going on? I told her,at that time only going on,because I 'm alone in my research. She immediately told me that I told you,I'm your best partner,But at that time you have no time for me. 

                    Now what do you think? I'm waiting for you,And its my promise that I always co-operating you with my 100%. I smiled and say OK mam ,what do you want? She only said that your co-operation with me. I immediately told her,Yes at this time I'm with you. We laughed too much to think about those moments where I confused the mentors. We dinnered together,and We departed from there.And at this time she called me and don't forget your promise. I told her no.I don't forget at this time.

                                Now she is my project partner and really at this time all the work of my project alonely she done. But what the project I select,how many years I have been result awaited. I don't know this,but i'm sure about one fact,Shailja always co-operate  with me,And she is nice partner of mine as a project partner. I hope she will get better in future.

The Threads of LOVE!!!

Can anyone believe that some threads tied in  your hands,save you from harm or we can say that save from any disaster. I know one fact ,that in this modern age,no one believe in this disgusting thoughts,but what i do?
Its a religious trends that on Rakshabandhan sisters tied the Rakhi or we can say that some threads tied on the brother's hands. And on the modern era,brother had to give some gifts to her sister.
                                                     If i can take as a positive way,in this giving manner richest save their tax policy,because there is no tax in gift. But really it is a festival of love and especially in Hindus there is a trend to do it. There are many customs and stories behind this festival,but I don't want to talk about it. Because in our childhood,we learn this our eassy. The Hirnakashyap's story, The Akbar's story,and many one. But what these stories told. I have no relation with these stories. In childhood, parents told one fact that on Rakshabandhan sister tied the rakhi on hands,and brother have to give some gift to sister. Actually papa give the gift behalf of all brothers.
                                  What a sweet relationship!!!!
                                                                                     If anyone said what is the relation without impartiality,I have only one answer that brother-sister relation is so strong that no one has a courage to damage it. In childhood,when teacher has to punish you when you got less marks in your test,then your elder sister has been called. And sister always save you from parents,but warn that in future we don't do this. But actually what happen? Again we got less marks in test and this process always continues. But at last sis told to parents and we got big punishment and  also to our sister.since they had no mistakes but they got punishment behalf of us. What they actually do for us?
                                                      Infactly they do a lot for us,but we always ignore them in  the busy race of world. I know one fact that when we are alone,when we feel bad,only one hand come to our side,and this hand is of our sister,and they helped us in our any manner,either it is against our parents. I love my sister and hope this love will always be maintained in  my life.....
                              The threads of love tied to our hand,they always felt us the desireness and strength or we can say the bond relation between brother and sister.  ........
                                                        

Again One Night Stand BUT....

It is said that,"one second change your life". Ya it is correct but according to me,"One decision of yours also changed your life". And this is all happen to me. Yes I told only ,"YES" to my friend whom I loved most. But stop... one fact also that she don't love me,and she knows actually that how much I love her. Actually the main problem is that she loved other person. What I do? I don't know. I had only one work that to love her as the deepest of my soul. And I follow my words,I love her as deep as much extent I love her....
                                                   The task is that on 15th August,The Independence Day,I've a thought to wander Delhi,but alonely you don't enjoy anything and unfortunately Ankita is online,,,I don't tell her name in any of my blog,but in this blog I told my life's name. Ankita is my life. And we decided to meet. And first we went to the metro walk which one is my favourite mall. There we shopped. And then we went to Akshar Dham,Where the crowd is too much. Then there we enjoyed Chole Bhature and especially Chocolate Pastry. Ankita like the pastry most,specially chocolate frost.
                                                 And in this wandering,we forget the time,but this is not the first time that we forget time. Actually when we are together,time moved fast or we can say that my whole life is less for meeting with her. She is being late for her hostel,so she decided to stay with me in my room,When she told me to stay with me,I'm shocked that in boy room a girl stayed whole night .What my landlord think. But in night how I kept her alone? So I asked my landlord and requested to allow her. And think She allowed. I'm shocked once again,But with Ankita these shocks are generally always lie in front of mine.
                            While being late,we decided to go to Jama Masjid. We reached there.  On entering there,she has to wear some clothes that are looking nice to her,but she denied. Hope I always see her as the most beautiful girl in the world,Hope thats is the reason. At Last we decided to go back home.
                                                  When we returned to my room,My landlord lady opened the door, As always Ankita is so smart to impress Aunties,she gave a very nice namaste to aunty,she smiled.And we went to my room. In hurry,I just opened the room and I pick all those things which a girl might be don't want to see. Then we decided to go to temple,She asked me to fresh,So I gave her my T-shirt,And this my T-shirt is most suited to her. And then we went to temple,and it is the first time that I went to temple with a girl.
           On returning,we bought a Thumsup which was her favourite, And to spend a whole night we bought a big one. And then we returned to my room. She asked me to watch a movie, so I asked which movie do you want to see? She smiled and say as per your choice. I suggested her,"IF ONLY" She agreed. And this movie is my favourite one,And on completing it she cried,because I hope so if a lover watch this movie, in end he must be cry.
                                       And in chatting the whole night spend,and this is the my luckiest day of my life that I spend my life with my that life which is not mine. When she returned to her college,I had a thought that if I told this to any person,then he had many non-negative thoughts with in his mind.And this could not be accepted by our society.  But whole night we talked,and in these really i have a thought to touch her,But I don't touched her because She had a trust on mine,and I love her not by lust,not only that she is beautiful.but actually I love her because I dreamt of her as my life partner,I want to spend all my life with her.
            And I know one fact that she forget that night in some days,but I remember this day as my sweetest pulse of my life,my sweetest heartbeats of my little heart. I wish to the GOD that one day please let my real love be shown to her,once she see me as her lover, but i know that this is not held in this life,so That is also called as wish......
                                         Many one says that Love become twice,Yes I love twice,thrice,and many more.....But Always I loved one girl only.......
                                 I heard that name always exist ,hopefully my name is also driven to those who has not got there love but they still love ........

(Undestand my feelings,not to name exactly........)..

Can India really developed????

I don't want to comment on any thing,but I just ask,"Can India really Developed??". It is a big question for us,and if you ask to every person then they had many opinions and logics about which they are firm. But their logics are just familiar with us. Different mens,different voices and different choices and also different propogandas...
                    But actually what we want? India become a developed country? Actually We don't want this,Because everyone want his desire complete on anything or in anyway. India became Independent on 15th August,1947. And Do we really are independent. If we ask this question to many persons then Everyone at that second say that YES we are independent. But we don't understand the real meaning of independence. Independence is a virtue for we give anything. This is not the sentence of mine,actually this sentence is of those people who want independence before independence,because they know the real meaning of Independence.
                         Infactly we forget Independence in this busy social life. Everyone is busy in his work to settle his life,to decide the future of their offsprings,really they are busy to discover them. But in discovering their own sole,their life is just crashed. When we ask them when do you work for the sake of country,they only say, firstly we are doing for our family,and when this responsibility has been finished then we do for our country,and in this league our country will follow.
                             Our country population is now 126 crore approx,but this is not developed as its population. We are the 3rd biggest railway route in World,but can every person is afforded to seat in the railway,Is it easy for every person in India that they got seat in the reservation,every train has its waiting increased just equal to its sleeper seats. Then why do we claim?
                                    There are many question like this in my mind,and there is no answer if they ask to those who are the really culprit of this. But i know one thing that don't ask why? Always decide your path as in such a way that any question is not lie in your path. I know the meaning of Independence,and I want my all youths are doing their jobs with honestly that no question being asked by our offsprings that what actually waht we did????????  

( the views are just of my mind,and this is not commenting on any other person.....)

Arjiyaan...

कोई अर्जियां नहीं मांगता है,  भगवन से झूठ बोलने के बाद,
सर हमेशा झुकता है,किसी का दिल दूखाने के बाद,
भले ही थोड़ी देर कि रहत मिलती हो,ख़ुशी मिलती हो,
किसी को दर्द देने के बाद,
मगर वो कभी नहीं उठ पता है,अपने अंतर्मन से,
किसी का दिल दूखाने के बाद!!!!


नासमझ नहीं हैं वो, मैं ये जानता हूँ,
नासमझ हम नहीं,ये समझती हैं आज,
सोचती हैं, कुछ भी कह देंगी, मान लेंगे हम,
मगर कुछ कहते नहीं,इसका ये मतलब नहीं,
कि मैं समझता नहीं इनके कुछ कहने के बाद,

कोई अर्जियां नहीं मांगता, भगवन से जूठ बोलने के बाद!!!!



धोका देना कितना आसान होता हैं,लोग ये कैसे समझ लेते हैं,
प्यार में कितना दर्द होता हैं,तो लोग ये कैसे दे लेते हैं,
धोका खाते-खाते, प्यार करते-करते ये जिंदगी कहाँ खो गयी,
बस फरक उनको न पड़ा जो बस,मूर्ति के सामान बस अलविदा कहकर चली गयी,



कोई अर्जियां नहीं मांगता ,भगवन से जूठ बोलने के बाद!!!!

Please understand my love!!!!

I wrote many blogs about love,but when I heard about the four letter simple word,"LOVE". I forget everything,I have only one face in my mind,and that time I only think about her. I love her from four years,but she don't love me as I loved her. And I'm waiting for her.

                                  I always want that Once she look me with the same feeling that I had for her,but as always she look me as a stranger as she know that how much I loved her. Why she did this to me always? But I know one thing specially that my love is true for her,either she loved me or not.
                            Some one ask that what do you feel when she treated you as this? I only answered him,I feel that I'm in heaven and you don't understand my feelings. I feel her about every pulse of my four years. I don't want to disturb her,my work is only to do love,and without expectation,and without give and take relation. I love her and it is not necessary condition that she love me too. In India,a one better thing that everyone is independent to love others. But there is no law about love. My love is true and a sweet mystery for her,and when she realized that I loved her too much then at that day she come to me and tightly bound me and silently told me that she love me. But it is a sweet and beautiful dream only.
                          I only want to say that when you comt to my life my life has been changed,"What did I do,I don't know!!,But One thing I really know that I love you!! Where there is love ,there is no misunderstandings,there is no discrepancy,and there is no feeling eithout love.Only love flows.....And one day you feel my love....and that  day hopefully I'm not in this world..."  AMEN!!!!!!     

Satisfaction!!!!!

Satisfaction,What a word? everyone in the world only said that he is satisfied,but actually no one is satisfied with his work,with his family,with his marks,with his girl friend ,,,,and really this is exactly a life. I told a story,that i'm an enggineer and it is all well known by all my blog reader,When my juniors got the result of 1st year,then one building has an silence,but second building of my college hostel where my juniors stayed. I went to the first building,and asked the result to one of my juniors who is the topper of 1st sem. he seriously said,"Sir, i got only 89%and by only one marks i don't become the topper of university." First i smile on him,and he only sais,"Sir aap has rhe ho ,ye meri jindgi ka sawal hai." And i told him,Rishabh be calm and you got really a wonderful percentage. But he don't agree with him.
                                         He is not satisfied with him,but when i went to the second building,and one junior offer me drink and i asked for what purpose you all enjoying,They only said,"Sir,by last night study we got 66%,so we enjoyed, but internal marks are not well.and he abuses our faculty members. They are also not satisfied.
                           Actually the life is full of dis-satisfaction,if we got one of our achievements,then our achievements changed at that time and from that time our achievements will be more. I don't say that not to increase your demands but first satisfy with your achievements,then decide your goals with your equally potential. When we demands more than our efforts then we firstly demotivate,and we loss also that things which we already achieve.
                                  I know one fact that if you gave your 100% in any work you really got your target,but 100% should be 100%,not 99.99%.......this is my Thoughts,and I always with my words.So i'm always satisfy with my activities,and i gave advice to all my friends that they should be follow this quote.......

Kaun huin main??????

कौन हू मैं , पहचानता नहीं अपने आपको!!!!
इस भीर भार कि दुनिया में दौड़ता हुआ,खोता हुआ मैं अपने आपको,
किसी चीज को पाने कि तल्लाश में,बस खोया रहा अपने आपको,
अब तो कोई बता दे कि कौन हू मैं,
क्योंकि पहचानता नहीं मैं अपने आपको....




किसी कि तलाश,किसी कि सुन्सुनाहत, बस सुनती हैं मेरी भावनाएं,
कोई तो है, जिसको पाने कि तलाश में ,खोता रहा मैं अपने आपको,
कोई तो तस्वीर,कोई तो निशानी दे जाओ,
कि आखिर किसकी तलाश में खोया रहा मैं अपने आपको,
लौट तो आओ, पहचान दे दो मेरी तुम,
क्योंकि खोता रहा मैं तेरी तल्लाश में अपने आपको,
कोई तो बता दे कि कौन  हूँ मैं,
क्योंकि पहचानता नहीं मैं अपने आपको....




मैं पागल हूँ,क्या-क्या हूँ,क्या बन गया हूँ तेरी याद में,
रोता,बिलखता रहता ,गाता रहता ,बिना पहचाने तुझको,
कि अब तो एक झलक दिखा दे,कि कौन हैं तू जिसके लिए,
खोता रहा मैं अपने आपको,
रात बिरात सनसनी में तेरी आवाज मैं सुनता हू,
तू पास होकर भी  दूर है,ये महसूस करता हूँ,
अब तो आ जाओ एक बार,कि देख लू मैं तुझको,
कि किसके लिए खोता रहा मैं अपने आपको,
कि अब कोई बता दे कौन हूँ मैं,
क्योंकि पहचानता नहीं मैं अपने आपको....




शायद जो तुने चाहा वो मुझको मिला हो,
मगर जो मैंने चाहा वो न मुझको मिला है,
इतना पाकर भी मैं क्यों अकेला हूँ,
तुम साथ नहीं हो मेरे शायद,
इसलिए तन्हाई ने मुझको घेरा है,
कोई ख़ुशी नहीं,कोई हसीं नहीं,कोई चाहत नहीं है,
जिंदगी में अब मेरी,
लौट के आ जाओ इस जिंदगी में एक बार तुम,
बस बता दो आखिरी बार तुम,
कि कौन हूँ मैं,
क्योंकि पहचानता नहीं मैं अपने आपको
पहचानता नहीं मैं अपने आपको!!!!!!!